Life's Too Short To Be Anyone Else But Yourself.

hiatus.

2009-12-10T13:57:00.001+08:00

on hiatus. officially band-busy. :X

back.

2009-11-02T18:27:00.009+08:00

well, the year alrdy flew by. i decided to update my blog & just forget about the old posts. haha. life's been greatly sucky, but true friends are always there. i have a new obsession. im in love. with 2pm.

im in love with NICHKHUN! yes, the middle one. XD

uh huh. this is him. he's not Korean at all. just half Thai & half Chinese, so he has to learn Korean to debut with 2pm. & he's fluent in english. :D plus, he dance well too! <3>

he dances Nobody, Tango Version in this video, with Sohee of Wondergirls, which yeah, is the youngest & does what i think is the cutest part of the song. they're so cute at the end! not being biased but, i really think his grip as a partner is great! better than Taecyeon's! haha, Linda. XD watch at 0:09 how he slides his hand. LOL. he was the only guy from 2pm who did that. hais. too cute. the end. XD

2009-09-29T21:05:00.002+08:00

yo! my b'day tmrw! :D somehow, i don't really look forward to it.

EOYs kind of spoilt it.

i rather know there's not going to be anything special, rather than know it's actually my b'day.

boleh gituk eh.

but still im turnin' 15 soon! :D

(editing soon.)

lost.

2009-09-04T18:57:00.002+08:00

I'm currently lost in this complicated world. I can kill people for more time.
'll be back soon. :D

life.

2009-06-26T21:27:00.002+08:00

so life's been great.
bangsawan is definitely, definitely fun.
completed the dance alrdy. :D
eh, my head keep on hitting the floor again & again whenever i die 'cause dengar-dengar, orang tengah nanges abeh hentakkan kepale orang ah kan?
XD
Abg Fadhlur had a hard time "killing" the girls at the last scene, cause we all avoided him. XD
macam bodoh seyh.
& in the end, nobody was dead.
he said he tapped us, but still, we're like "he didn't."
LOL.
& he was damn dramatic when he showed the stage fall to Farhanny.
Azlinda, "eh eh, sexy."
like whattheheck? haha.
& the 4 hulubalang, Khai, Ridz, Khalid & Daniyal nyer pose for curtain call kelakar seyh!
but somehow, it all look different. haha.
today, me, Syaf, Dhiyyah, Shira, Syazana & Shalinah went crazy.
when Abg Syadili, Abg Fadhlur & Abg Bob left the room & the room was kind of dark, Syazana was like "Pump up the party".
LOL.
& i started playing "Jai Ho" from my hp, & everything went crazy ah. HAHA.
after that, decided to record a few other songs all the way to Lot 1.
Abg Bob's car honked us, as we waved them goodbye.
we went to eat at Long John Silver & talked about a lot of things.
haha, Allisa, makeup guy tu aku nyer ah! HAHA.
Syazana, kau amek Bob je kan?
& we have this crazy idea to watch a movie & after deciding, we went West Mall to watch Drag Me to Hell.
seram giler nak mampos.
i sanked to my seat, closed my eyes with the popcorn, shivered with the popcorn in my hands, SCREAMED, pulled Syazana's skirt, covered my face with my bag & splashed the water i was drinking to my face cause i was too shocked.
haha, kelakar seyh.
after that, Allisa had to go, & we went McCafe to slack.
Shahirah told us, uhmm, stories, & we just stare at her. XD
then we left, to go home.
it was damn fun. :D

i wish.

2009-06-12T11:52:00.004+08:00

it's my fault, but why i'm missing you? ugh, this shouldn't happen.
i'm just really sorry i made you wait.
cause i really didn't know.
seriously, who would?
there was nothing special about me.
there's so much things, i still haven't told you, & i guess, i'm not going to, cause i doubt it matters anymore.
there was never a guy who liked me, without liking any of my friends first.
i was always a 2nd, or even 3rd, & that just really made me feel insignificant.
just for that, you were & you are different, at least to me.
you made me feel imprtnt.
when i get bored or stressed in sch, you'd msg me like as if you knew, & at times when i wanted to msg you, i'd check my phone to see that you alrdy did.
we may not be talking the whole day, but almost to midnight, you'd say "goodnight". (:
i'd be crying over stress, but you'd be there for me & you don't even know it.
i just, really miss you.
now & then, when i look through our msgs, i'd laughed despite maybe actually crying over stuff.
when things are just down for me, you ain't there anymore..
i just wish, i'd accepted to go out with you.
i just wish, i didn't let my past haunt me.
i just wish, i wasn't scared to tell you the things that i wanted to.
i just wish, i wasn't scared to tell you how much you actually meant to me when i never made it seem that way to you.
i just wish, i didn't run away from the truth, that i miss you.
i just wish, i could tell you that i have always miss you, whenever you're not there.
i just wish, i could tell you, that i miss you now.
i just wish, i never made you wait. i just didn't know.
i just wish, you'd be there for me again.
i just wish..
but, who am i trying to kid, right?
you just deserve better.
happy to know you've moved on.
knowing that you'd gotten over me just as fast as your exs, made me realise, that i'm just insignificant, & that hurts much more.
but, i guess, that's just life, for me.
i just wish.

justanothergirl.
mira.

herstory;

2009-05-30T11:26:00.002+08:00

& I promise you, I wouldn't be crying over things like that anymore.

You were/are right. It's history.

2009-05-30T11:25:00.000+08:00

i'll update about camp soon, but it was really fun. :D

2009-05-29T18:20:00.001+08:00

going to update soon.
certain things made my day go bad.
but some friends will make it better. (:
promise updates. lol.
like anyone read this blog.

you?

2009-04-25T22:33:00.006+08:00

I don't know what to feel about you.
You came so sudden into my life.
When i was almost at my lowest.
Maybe there was nothing funny, but you made me laugh whenever you talk to me.
Was it by magic, or somehow I left my past behind?
You made me miss you, whenever you don't talk, & when you start, that's exactly what you ask.
There were too many times that I was crying, & you made me laugh, even when you didn't know it, & I didn't tell you.
Up till now.
That's what I like about you. A lot.
& somehow, you never stopped. As if you knew.
There were times where I really wanted to talk to you, but I didn't, cause I didn't want to be too close to you.
The past maybe gone, but scars are still not mend.
'Cause, I said, too many times, I always get hurt in the end.
Maybe I don't want to lose you, but I'm trying everything I can to not need you.
It becomes so hard. Too hard.
I'd just sit in my bedroom, staring at my handphone, waiting.
For you.
But then again, I keep thinking, "No, it shouldn't have been this way."
Though it may not feel nice, I'd say, "Thanks that you didn't talk to me. Cause that'll help to create that distance from you."
'Cause yet again, for me, you seemed too good to be true.

mira.

2009-04-24T17:02:00.002+08:00

cheer comp is coming.
awww, it's so sad that the four of us can't be together to do the cheers again.
but well, yeahh, things have to change.

maybe, i do miss them, but it's kind of hurting that even after what you've done, you're just being called (insert name)'s friend, (insert name)'s gang, everyone else that helped, (insert smth) girls.
yeahh, well. i can't really say i'm surprised either. things has always been like that ever since i was born, maybe. never visible to anyone. it's always, everyone else.

well, i'm not mad about it anyway. can't help that sometimes, you're really not appreciated.
just that, i don't want to do anything anymore, regarding the comp.
heck, i'm saying as if i'm SO good. haha. but yeahh, just saying, i don't really want to be involved. not that i did anything significant anyway. (:
THEY did better.

oh.my.god.

2009-04-22T19:26:00.002+08:00

No one could imagine how stupid i felt.
Why did i even want to give it a try?
I made a fool of myself. I really did.
It wasn't as bad when those laughters came.
It made me realised again, that it never was good.
Friends being friends, they'll never say the bad things.
Always try to make you feel better.
But things, will never change.
I can't deny the obvious truth.

alone;

2009-04-19T10:24:00.003+08:00

Wow, seeing this picture really made my day. my week. my month. XD

These are some of the people that I spent my time with the entire week. ( Week only, but my time is precious so you guys should be honoured. XD Macam paham. LOL. )

Please try to ignore all the cannot-maintain-though-we-tried-hard-to-but-how-to-cause-we're-jumping face.

Really, I had fun. Thanks. :D

different.

2009-04-18T10:49:00.002+08:00

everyone found everyone else.. & it's all alone over again.

Sports Carnival; class bonding.

2009-03-13T21:23:00.003+08:00

today was quite okay actually.
though it didn't go as well as i expected, it wasn't too disappointing either.
while waiting for our turn, the girls were actually playing the concentration game in one big circle then truth & dare. girls bonding. very good de.
i was in Team 1, but i didn't play the first match.
i was running like mad to find Hui Yan. XD
they WON against 3L1. (:
Hui Yan got the penalty shot, & when we won, i thought she was just wiping her eyes then we realised that she was crying.
awwww.
we had a group hug. :D
played the second match, but we lost against 3C though. i ALMOST cried. almost uh. but didn't. so we left, & cheered on the boys.
even though they were losing, we still cheered like our lungs was going to burst.
who cares if we won or not? it was obvious that our class was REALLY bonding. for real.
maybe even more compared to the other class. (:
not being a sore loser or anything, but the game was not that fair sey.
it's not about our sportmanship or anything uh, but before you talk about sportmanship, you must talk about fairness first.
we still continued on cheering for Team 2, in which they won first match. yay them!
we shouted like HELL.
me & Azlinda so semangat, we stand up & cheered "gimme gimme more, gimme more, gimme gimme more."
& the guys looked at us like we're from outer space like that.
XD
but still, our class was bonding.
& even though they lost, we had one last group hug, as we watched the other games.
i'm probably going to lose my voice due to too much cheering. haha.
bought an ice pop for Shira, who didn't want it, BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO DRINK/EAT IT.
haha.
bought hotdogs for me & Azlinda and we were so hungry.
i soon left, & rushed for band.
after i changed, i saw her crying.
& when i asked why, she then hugged me and continued crying.
tried to console her, but i probably had to tiptoe a bit, cause she was bending down to hug me, cause i was so short.
XD
knew the reasons, & i SO don't find it fair.
she totally backed out of old sch hip hop for it.
so unreasonable.
but tried to console her uh. (:
it's okay bah, prove them that they couldn't be more wrong. :D
went for band, & as we marched all the way to 4th floor, my voice grew tired, & they all laughed when they hear my voice. haha.
when we keluar baris, we probably shocked the few sec 1s. LOL.
got to know it was a soli passage, & not only that, we had to stand up.
during the real performance, when i was standing up, i was trembling a LOT.
zzzz.
but i tried to shake it off, by focusing on the rhythm. macam paham jeeeee. XD
but really, i did.
went down, saw Divya.
she came back! haha. so good uh. not tired meh? haha.
continued on with the prize giving ceremony.
then change, go my house with Syaf then slack.
got ready for Malay Dance but Syaf have to go for an interview first.
so i was left with Shira & Allisa.
IT WAS DAMN FUNNEH.
cikgu selalu maen-maenkan Shira.
kelakar tak boleh angkat sey, kener seret.
the way Shira dance, FUH!
so funny. not how she dance uh, but when she make salah, CONFIRM cikgu nampak. haha.
& i am still not over Allisa's sexy voice.
even Khalid said so!
HAHA.
memang tak boleh angkat when she laughed.
still rmbred ystrdy at the drink stall with her, "Auntie, two green - "
her voice disappeared & i just couldn't stop laughing, even the auntie.
haha.
did a few things, & i just got really tired. haha.
after that, Shira & Syaf taught me the hip hop formation a bit, & we were off!

~ our class really bonded today. somehow, the class spirit seemed so real, & i hope it is. it's nice how we were so sad when we couldn't win it for our class, but still, we never stopped cheering. i kind of like this class. you'll just never feel left out here. nevertheless, still love you 201'08. :D

ps. i'll update the days before, soon.

missin' it.

2009-02-28T21:03:00.003+08:00

i've been watching CAP videos.
haha. random.
suddenly, i missed it.
rmbred that we spend 5 days together.
me, Shalinah, Shira & Dhiyyah were always the first to wake up each morning.
then sembahyang suboh dulu, baru pergi breakfast.
going for all the lectures & all the delicious food breaks.
& all the 11 malays that went there, would go to these tables, isolated from the rest, to play truth & dare.
XD haha.
then the funny malay classes.
& Cikgu Isa Kamari go and tell us ghost stories on MALAM JUMA'AT.
i SERIOUSLY didn't sleep that night.
& i cried cause i was so scared. somehow. XD
then every night, after dinner, we went for our courses, indian dance/javanese dance/art/drama & percussion.
so nice.
like a complete day.
lectures during the day, & be "creative" at night. so nice sey.
it's like having school, during the night.
then we end class at 10.30pm.
haha, so fun.
& the last day was like a rehearsal day and we were so busy trying to get everything right.
it don't even feel like we're going for school camp at all, cause it was more of fun that lectures.
we were so creative, that even during lectures, from on top, i can see that everyone was pretty much writing their own poems rather than listening to the lecture.
because one fun lecturer always said that she does that.
XD
i wrote A LOT of poems.
haha.
hmm, tired now. will update this post soon. :D

DhiyRaMirFieShaLin ;

2009-02-25T20:29:00.002+08:00

know that we're all for one, one for all. :D

:D

2009-02-20T20:50:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ASYRAF & HAFIZ.

i didn't manage to see Asyraf, so i sms-ed him instead, but Hafiz, senang ah, cause his class is next to mine la kan.
reminded Syaf so we tried to wish him together, & i did, but i think he didn't hear me.
XD
haha, nevermind.
ader niat jugak pe. lol.

"sheesh, i don't want to take a picture."

this picture was taken on the 4th night, at Creative Arts Programme Seminar, after farewell dinner, which we can wear home clothes. i wear dress sey. XD

haha, anyway, i tried to take a picture of everybody, & Hafiz tried hard to run away. seriously, he used his pass to open the door gates to an unknown block, so this picture is as far as i got. nampak malu je, but he's NOT. XD
eh, i rmbred this video i think during Creative Arts Programme.

i tried to take a picture of Fiz, but tak kesampaian.

so i take video instead, & he turned!

at least for a second.

on the next day, the last day, he actually asked me to delete but i didn't want to.

i wanted to blackmail, y'know. XD

& he was so perasan. -.- he said, when i didn't want to delete, "kalau interested tu, bilang je la."

haiyohh. haha.

omg, i miss CAP. ):

will post more soon. ciao!

it breaks.

2009-02-20T20:50:00.001+08:00

very lazy to post now. :D

(:

2009-02-18T19:37:00.002+08:00

yo earthlings! XD

& i finally edited my post on Valentine's Week. FINALLY. (i know i'm slow.)

this week was still quite better. & we patched up alrdy. XD
don't assume, 'kay? haha. lol.

Monday;
English was first period, & some special people had to give their speech.
Az had no eye contact sey cause she didn't memorise. haha.
when Ming Yeow gave his, Benjamen was right at the back, & he wrote on a paper, "Louder". haha. Carlyna gave a good speech. (:
Chemistry was next, & we have to go into groups.
i was same group as Syaf, Az, Han Yan (Zong Heung's) & Kilice (Zong Heung's 2. XD)
it was so funy luh.
we have to write the theory of an experiment, & i confused them. Az said "stop it about crystallise. don't confuse us."
haha.
Han Yan randomly sang "let us celebrate this moment.." then the whole group sang "a brand new day awaits.."
LOL, so random sey.
Han Yan, or Zong Heung's, is damn random. suddenly, she said that she didn't add us on MSN.
Han Yan; eh, i didn't add you guys on MSN.
Az; i add both of you so shut up & drive.
then the group laugh.
we had nothing better to do sey.
Han Yan; eh, you like Zong Heung lor!
Azlinda; be true to yourself.
Kilice; huh? he likes me?
XD
then don't know how, suddenly i like Zong Heung. -.-
so i purposely said, in a louder tone, "Han Yan, you like Zong Heung, is it?"
people started laughing. haha.
i act like i did nothing. haha.
blahblahblah.
duing recess, i helped Syaf & Lin with their sastera then the bell rang. but still managed to help finish it.
while talking during sastera, it went blackout sey.
guys; eh, sejuk nyer.
-blackout-
Cikgu Manaf; kan?
haha.
then we had to learn the right way of singing the same song we learnt the other time, this time, standing.
& i'm in love with.. someone's.. VOICE.
yes, the VOICE only, NOT the PERSON.
let's make it clear again, the VOICE only. haha.
but i shan't say who. haha.
we had, old sch hip hop again, & we have learn new stuff.
it was funny, the hip movements & all. haha.
still quite fun though. :D

Tuesday;
during English, suddenly, one by one started standing, so i was being so stupid & asked Lin, Kilice & Han Yan, "why people stand one?"
in the end, i get to know, it was to greet the teacher.
XD
so paiseyh.
& Kilice was laughing saying i was cute.
-.-
haha.
recess, we came back class, & Lin + Syaf keep on irritating me with the i like (insert name here).
me & Lin then went outside, & sit on the lockers. (yes, there's no other place. XD)
then H_ _ _q passed, so i started laughing cause Linda said she was interested in him. haha.
Veingad passed, then Linda said i like someone from their class.
-.-
i said, "No..!"
Veingad said "you like Asyur la."
haha, to Linda.
kener kau. muahaha! (i sound evil. XD)
then he said, "& she i know like, (insert name here).
wt.. that was so long ago.
& Syafiqah was like "ohhhhhhh... aiyoh mira.."
then bell rang, & he went out of his class!
omg, did he hear? i hope not.
haha.
the rest of the day was quite boring, then had band.
Wen Xi said i was the section representative but, i think, Cindy would be the one if she didn't need to take the band. haha.
we ate at KFC, after band, as always, again. haha.

oh yeah, we had PE, & we have to run outside again.
before the run, i was just sort of "emoing" while waiting for the traffic light, then Syaf said, "oh, terfikirkan (insert name here) eh?"
-.-
i gave her the why-would-i-miss-him-when-we're-not-even-together look.
haha.
ran with Atiqah again, & yes! i didn't stop.
haha.
but i did slow down for Atiqah. (:
Zhi Yee was good, then at the end of the run, i let Atiqah run in front of me, & she was ahead two seconds. haha.
went back to sch, & we played basketball.
it was the worst time i ever had. really. haha.
1. Azlinda accidentally (confirm purposely. XD) hit my head.
2. the ball hit my face that i fall to the ground. haha.
3. while catching the ball, i almost fall.
4. when i finally catched the ball, i fall. XD
5.. the ball hit my mouth. XD
6. on the rebound, it hit my head.
7. Azlinda accidentally (sure. haha.) throw at me too hard which hit my CHEST, yes, ONLY the chest too hard, that i fall to the floor again. XD
8. while trying to catch the ball, someone accidentally hit me & i scratched my knee.
LOL.
i seriously too short until can't see, is it?
haha.
even Syaf said, "why always Amirah that kena?"
i think everyone had their chance & asked if i was okay.
especially Syaf, everytime. haha.
Azlinda, hit, then laugh. gahh. that woman. haha.

why? why i let it hurt me?

with love; (edited)

2009-02-14T22:21:00.005+08:00

just a video that i felt like doing for Friendship day.

wow, it makes me feel happy doing it, somehow, really.

kind of used random songs. XD

& i included the last few pictures which was from our cheer comp last year, which we FREAKIN' WON! :DD

just so glad the cheers turned out the way i wanted it to be. love you 201'08! XD

&&& Happy Valentine's Day! :D

yes, HAPPY Valentine's Day.

so i hope you had a fun time. (:

today, met up with the clique to make the police report.

no, we didn't do anything wrong, just some things. haha.

there was a hot police inspector there! XD

even Syafiqah said so! i can see she was trying to not laugh. lol.

but i wouldn't say which police station we went. :P

we went to the McDonals' near West Mall, but Shira had to go.

so sad de. ):

had a fun time with Dhiyyah & Syaf.

we had, a long, long, long, wonderful talk. XD

& i finally tried double chocolate frappe.

it's so funny when Dhiyyah pronounced it. haha.

jangan marah.

we talked about certain guys AND girls, gave predictions, match make & almost everything.

Syaf & Dhiyyah wanted to interrogate who i supposedly like, but it didn't work out.

cause whatever names that they gave, i just laughed.

so hysterically, & i don't know why. haha.

it was quite fun though. we stayed there for almost two hours.

when we went home, i wanted Dhiyyah to alight at CCK, so i said, "aku msg (insert name here) ah, jangan jealous tau. -giggles-"

& guess what? she really alighted. i asked her, & she playfully said "mesti ah jealous.

haha, but of course, i don't like the guy Dhiyyah like. he's like a brother to me. :D

so, in the end, it wasn't so bad of a Valentine's Day after all, as in, for us singles. haha.

video; :D

LOL.

2009-02-13T19:20:00.002+08:00

tireddd today.
update soon.
i'm making a short video of my friends. :D
going to post it maybe later; soon.
& tmrw's Valentine!
<3
LOL.
i was telling someone who wants this girl's address, but i don't have it.
haha, too bad.
but i ask him to msg/call her the instructions, & she's suppose to follow them to get to a flower & card near her house.
but hey, that's SWEET, y'know.
OKAY, I'M LAUGHING TO MYSELF.
i actually thought of that. WOW.
XD
& then when she gets, maybe he ask her for stead or smth.
LOLOLOLOL.
see la, my stupid imagination.
if he did it, good luck!
but i'm not giving false hopes though.
(i'm still pretty much laughing)

XD

update on the oh-so-boring life. :D

2009-02-13T19:06:00.000+08:00

Monday;
there was sastera that day & we learnt how to sing this syair.
the nicer one, was probably the second one, but it was more hilarious la.

Sopan santun anak Melayu
Senyumannya manis bila disapa
Dalam pantun irama berlagu
Terkenang jasa orang tua-tua.

Lemak Manis alah amboi-amboi!
Santan kelapa alah amboi-amboi!
Kupandanglah manis alah amboi-amboi!
Anak siapa?

i thought that it was fairly easy to sing but there was a technique to it.
& it is rather fun. haha.
the guys singing in blue, & girls in red, then together.

then, old sch hip hop, & learn the song again. :D

Wednesday;

school was boring, until old sch hip hop.
the instructor taught us a new song, then dividing us into groups.
he kind of praised us, haha.
he asked the other group to see. XD
then, rushed for band.
Cindy played the solo for Aladdin, then i had to play the solo for Prince Of Egypt.
i freaked out.
i hate solos.
not that i have anything against it, but yeahh, i rmbred my primary sch band syf, when i felt like the band got silver because of my rather disappointing solo.
it's just that, i practised so hard, but come that day, i was trembling.
somemore, the solo i had to play now, was the STARTING of the song, & NO ONE else was playing. obviously , i trembled.
i was kind of lost though, cause i rmbred my primary sch.
XD
so, i played by feel, got the notes correct, (a miracle) but rushed a bit, haha.
then, we ate @ KFC.
as always. haha.

Friday;
we had PE, but this time we ran outside sch. i was the second girl, BUT, i was disappointed with my timing. i deproved a lot, but anyway, my point was not to leave Atiqah.
must motivate her. XD
the rest of the day was boring, then we had malay dance, in the hall.
Abang Am said "group ni bagos jugak eh."
XD
kembang la. takkan tak kembang. XD
TIRED, i feel like i broke my legs.

2009-02-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

today was pretty much fun.
bio test wasn't that difficult as expected, but i do expect some marks to be deducted off.
PE was next, & i know for a fact i run 5 rounds. (: happy luh katerkan.
i thought i did 4, cause all the guys left, & i was the only girl who was there then.
naseb baek tak lari lagik.
kalau tak, memang pandai sangat.
but i wanted to do 4 sey. tapi takot nanti, during the real test, i'll get too used to 4 rounds.
& thanks Shahirah, for the "motivation". haha.
played netball, & i paiseyh-ed myself.
haha.
cause i was the GK, & i don't need to really move much, i was just standing there, & looking at them, with my hand on my head gituk uh.
Shahirah, who was also having PE then, was shouting "ooooh! AMIRAH POSING SEXY SEY! PWEET!"
haha, naseb baek banyak tak dengar. Shahirah, Shahirah, tu bukan pose la.
-_-
lol.
Syafiqah was joking about this one guy who i shan't say who, & she said "dier pose pasal nak tunggu (insert name here) datang, abeh nampak, then tak payah suker (insert another name here) lagik, pasal Mira sexier."
lol. aper saje la korang.
English was next, & Ms Phua was quite angry a little. i so don't blame her though.
we should be more responsible. (:
then recess, then saw Shira, Shalinah, Dhiyyah in the toilet. (wow, what a place to meet. haha.)
ever since i stepped into the toilet, Shira was repeating the same old thing again for like 10 times? haha.
went into their class for a while, wrote a note on Alvina's table. haha.
i wanted to go back class, since they're going canteen, then Dhiyyah & Shira was holding my hand gituk. one on the left, the other on the right.
they call themselves my bodyguards.
i was "dieting" la katerkan. haha.
HMT, was next, & i was damn afraid in class.
i always felt like.. haha, nevermind.
i shan't scare myself.
so, after sch, Shira & Syaf come to my house, while Dhiyyah busy dating.
XD
we watched American Idol, sembahyang, then went to popular to buy certain things.
went to sch for malay dance.
FINALLY sec 1s are learning to dance. haha.
kelakar ah diorang.
Abang Am was giving the timing & the sec 1s were like remixing it with all the "uh" "yeah yeah" "stamp your feet". haha.
hilarious.
then Shira got to go, & RIDZWAN SAID "BYE" TO SHAHIRAH.
haha. funny la him.
the guys were like talking about steam.
-_-
yeahh, then danced, danced, danced, then i couldn't turn properly then terjatoh.
but gently la.
i was basically on the floor, because i was laughing. haha.
so, one of the juniors said her name "Aisyah.." & Allisa was saying it "amboi, lembut nah. Aisyah.."
then, she was saying out her name, with her hand so mentel gituk brushing off her shoulders, "Allisa.."
haha, tak leh angkat sey.
so tireddd, & i gave late replies to him, but yeahh. quite fun.
he was showing us examples of how some people did, & it was damn funneh.
especially when he teach with chinese & indian accents.
haha.
& there was certain rules that he said, & the reasons were.. uhmm, HILARIOUS.
haha, i wouldn't even say them. (:
went home with Syaf then talk, talk, talk.
some were damn funny, haha.
& sorry Syaf, if all of this made you irritated.
i try to make it as unseen as possible. :D
& true, i am confident in our friendshipssss.

2009-02-05T19:02:00.002+08:00

too tired to blog now.
shall update soon.
but thank you guys, for understanding why i did what i did, & for not thinking of it at such a narrow view. (:
that msg wasn't because i felt that you guys just pitied, but is for just clearing things up, cause i know you guys wouldn't think of it that way. (:

unreasonable.

2009-02-02T16:35:00.008+08:00

i finally break down today
i don't even wish to talk about it.
basically, i was crying throughout the day.
& i didn't felt like going for recess or whatsoever cause i doubt you want to see my face too.
i totally really absolutely break down during recess.
gah.
went out of the class cause it was too noisy.

surprisingly, people do actually care about me?
i mean, i don't even know la. seriously.
during recess, Sarah & Farhanah tried to console me, but hey, it was allright. (:
after recess, Kak Suhaina, someone who i am absolutely not close to, asked if everything was okay? but yeah, a weak smile was all i could give.
i cried during the other lessons too, even during sastera.
i sobbed my way to the classroom.
Cikgu Manaf asked if i was okay, cause he said my eyes were red & all, but yeahh, i was okay. after sometime, he looked at me again & said "boleh ke awak kak? saye tengok awak saket je?"
so, the reason was because i was cold.
that wasn't it, but who cares la kan?
it was much worst during E Maths, & since i was at the back, it wasn't obvious at all.
when sch ended, waited for Syafiqah to give Ridzwan his book back.
Khai walked past & when he walked back again, he asked "asal dari tadi emo je?"
i just looked down, cause my eyes were wet, shook my head & gave a smile.
& he just look at me, then walk away ah.
but thanks, cause you showed that you care. well, maybe you don't, but yeahh. (:
then Hafiz or someone almost kick the soccer ball to me, & he tried to control it and all, & it really feels like i tried to look down all the way.
we learnt old sch hip hop, & it was quite fun.
but it was damn awkward at first, cause we had to pop & all that, & the volleyball guys were all infront, but yeahh. haha.
i love the last song.
we did our warm up to Miss Independent.
& most of us were singing it. lol.
it made me forget things for a while.
:D
tmrw, working on the choreography at bukit batok/boon lay.
& Asyur said i looked pale, but i don't think so la kan? haha. biase-biase aje.

& i guess, i'll just try to avoid you. just like how you run away from truth. so you'll be happy that i don't steal friends from you either. if that's the reason. well, i don't know. like i said, unreasonable. but i don't bkame it on you. maybe you finally realised, i'm not worth being a friend afterall. (:

could it be i never thought it would turn out this way?

2009-01-31T18:37:00.010+08:00

i've been seriously stressed up these few days.
i don't know how long i can take it.

i really have enough problems & i don't need you to add it on.
i was trying my best to accept your flaws, but you.. ?
i don't even want to talk about it.

i'm not emo, but i'm seriously going to break down soon.
why is this always happening to me?
i never would want anything.
i appreciate whatever i have, not asking for more.
cause what for you wish for something or even someone that just won't happen?
but it seems like everyone is leaving me.
everyone i thought was by my side.
how stupid i was to believe in all these.. lies?
goes to show how naive & vulnerable i can be?

for me, i would give everything else in this world just so to have friends, by my side.
you could have everything else, but what would it be without having anyone to share it with?
yes, they do become problems sometimes & you wish you don't have them, but have you ever thought that you have flaws too?
i can have bags, shoes, clothes, handphone, jewelleries, EVERYTHING, but friends would ALWAYS be more important.
but.. are they leaving too?

people asked me, why i have low self-esteem?
but hasn't it always been that way?
i've always been the invisible one, in everything.
& i don't mind that.
really.
but how to be confident when all your doubts are true?
whatever that you feel insecure about yourself?
i really think, it's not worth liking/loving me. even as a friend.
it's just.. not worth it. I'M not worth it.
because of that, i find it so hard to be comfortable with anyone.
well, i guess, that's my mistake.
maybe, that's why i keep losing them.
again Syaf said was true, it's hard to "be" with someone who just doesn't feel comfortable with you even how hard they tried. but i'm learning. even though, it might seem too late, but it's worth a try. (:
but i got to say, i'm having a happier time in secondary sch, because i wouldn't need to be anyone else but myself.
i got to see different views of life, that i never saw.

damn funny la Myra & Syaf tadi.
you all say those words but i absolutely didn't faham.
bukan aper ah, but that shows how innocent i am.
innocent not that kind of innocent, just y'know, never been that type to learn "vulgarities" term kan? haha.
so meeting on Tuesday, for malay dance choreography for Syaf's "sister" wedding.
yeahh, no sch, so fun! haha.
going to Bukit Batok CC is it? dk ah. finally, a day to "rest". haha.

malay dance was quite fun la kan.
Abang Am was damn funny.
he showed us "cheats", & told ask about how his group sabo-ed the girls, when they left their dance, & like how this girl danced when her rambot "terjatoh".
then me, Syaf & Kak Fazleen got to be the guys?
seriously, i couldn't stop laughing.
guys have to be charming la kan, so we have to look at the girls.
Abang Am said "perempuan sebenarnyer mentel, tapi tak tunjokkan".
so the girls have to look down, but must steal glances.
then he showed how, couldn't help but laugh.
he said, "kalau ni boyfriend awak, takkan tak nak tengokkan?"
-he shows how a girl dance then steal a glance & saying 'sial ah, handsome nyer.'-
haha.
he so funny la.
oh yeah, i got to know i'm XS or smth?
& the pants/skirt was too long for me, i have to fold.
haha.
then we went through the tarian, changed the steps a bit.
rested, then it seems like everyone forgot the new steps when we ran through again.
so, it's like, everyone turned, when we weren't suppose to, & i was like doing that pose, i was so paiseyh. haha.
Syaf got time to say while dancing, "tadi cumer kau je sey buat".
haha, true what you said.
maybe, just maybe, i can do it right, but no self-confidence so everything will be a mess even when i'm right. lol.
haha, what to do?
my life's like that.
& can everyone stop saying i have so many scandals?
really la, i have none lor.
haha.
i'm not even with anyone, so how can i have scandals?
& seriously, ME? SCANDALS?
don't match. haha.
Alvina & Syaf, the thousands of scandals you said, especially those in band, they're not even real la. is y'all make up oneeee!
walao. LOL.
i barely talk to guys lor.
-_- haha.

i know my life's imperfect, so there's really a lot you can hate about me. go ahead. make yourself happy. that's always what i've been trying to do. :D

it all seemed so blur, when it's really clear.

2009-01-30T21:05:00.006+08:00

wednesday;
can't rmbr anything.
but i had band.
it was torturing.
haha.
we had sectionals, so yeahh.
Alvina & Cindy keep hitting me la kan?
-_-
on the same hand, somemore.
seriously, why people keep hitting me?
& Alvina keeps irritating me with "he's coming towards you".. & all.
-_-
Alvina, if you like him, don't cover up by using me.
HAHA. lol.

thursday;
all i rmbred is that we had sastera.
Cikgu Manaf, explained to us about.. sastera la kan.
duh, haha.
he was suddenly talking about love, & everyone started laughing.
"Saya tahu awak semua pasti sudah ada seseorang, tak perlu nak malu-malu."
LOL? haha. i just look down. LOL.
NOT THAT I HAVE SOMEONE AH, but just felt weird talking about it. HAHA.
he had to go, so we were left to do it.
before he left, he said that if anything happens, he'll blame Hafiz/Khai & Syaf.
haha, kesian.
so Allisa said "eh, kalau gituk, buat bising ah. aper lagi."
she was damn funneh can?
"rangkap ini memberikan makna yang bermakna.. -laughes hysterically-"
LOL.
tak leh angkat, kener seret. lol, lame.
Linda made my paper fly away?
haha.
idk what i said, but she said i sounded like a kid?
she was like telling everyone.
"aku nak buat macam maner Mira buat, tapi tak leh ah. terlalu budak kecik."
-_- haha.
we got to know today, that BPGHS is finally in Band 1 in Singapore.
more pressure to do better for studies.
ugh.
but hurray, for 1 day off! :D

Fazri, stop trying to make me feel so scared kan? tahulah malam Jumaat. -_-
haha, kind of felt hurt by that certain thing, the words that you said, but not your fault. :D

today;
History was funny as per usual.
too bad Alvina.
he likes you too much.
lol.
being the discipline master, Mr Tan of course have many stories to tell.
so he was saying that to make an inference, we need evidence to prove it.
he asked Dhiyyah "if a guy say "i love you" you can't accept right? must show proof. if he give diamond ring, you want?"
Dhiyyah; i think so.
LOL?
me & Syaf just hilariously laugh about it.
Mr Tan continued asking that question in several ways.
haha.
he said that if we don't do well for '0' levels, then we would only have half day off instead of 1 day compared to this year's results, people would throw rotten eggs at us. LOL.
had HMT later on, & it was okay.
talked to Dhiyyah a lot.
she hit me, but she said sorry cause she heard a sound when she hit me. haha.

PE was tiring.
we had to run 5 rounds around the sch.
i'm proud to say i didn't stop running.
yay me!
haha.
i sort of partnered with Atiqah, & she did stop, but i asked her not to.
of course i slowed down for her.
it would be very rude, if i leave her behind kan?
yeah, we beat guys?
probably this is the best achievement during PE, being the first two girls with Atiqah.
she called me her best running partner la. awww, so flattered.
haha. she was telling people, that she almost gave up, but i "motivate" her.
oh, wow.
lol.
played basketball.
& as expected, the ball hit my head. AGAIN.
seriously, am i that short that can't see where am i?
LOL.
i finally scored ONE. okay, just ONE, but it was okay kan?
haha.

then, RECESS.
so i avoided Aylwin & Jermaine (band seniors) cause they seem to always bully me, then idk how, i stepped on Jermaine's shoe.
i looked damn stupid la.
haha.
then he saw, go & pat my head like that.
i felt so small. haha.
Syaf; eeeeee, so cute sey.
we were not cute sey!

haha. really la. -_-
she, & maybe all my friends, especially Alvina, keeps saying that everything i do is sweet/cute.
as in, when me & someone else la.
not me, being cute. cause i'm not. happy to say that though. haha.

English was okay, i guess.
it start off damn funny, as usual, but someone, Ms Phua got a little bit angry.
i really don't blame her.
we have to buck up our attitude.

we have to meet Mr Ong, explained about that video camera, then me, Shira, Syaf & Dhiyyah went my house, to prepare for tarian/randai. we didn't know where Linda & Shalinah went. ):
i managed to watch Suci for a while.
Dennis so sweet! LOL.
we went for tarian, selepas sembahyang, & we noticed sec 1s were there too.
no offence, but if you come, you just seriously got to dance?
don't just sit around, slack, & just wasting our space?
when we were sec 1, we still had to learn.
we have to AGAIN, find the sec 3 guys.
Syaf & Shira didn't wear shoes, but i chose to wear my flats. haha.
without socks la, i'm not that rajin.
as expected, they were playing soccer.
-_-
they saw us, but buat bodoh ah.
we called Khalid, cause he was the nearest, since we were at 2nd floor, even he didn't do anything.
we told Cikgu Manaf, that because he said latest at 3, the guys went late.
walao, that's because you guys went sembahyang, not to play soccer.
grrr.
went back, start training.
i missed a few steps here & there, but sort of managed to catch up.
Abang Am worked on the details.
during the breaks, i played the piano, since it's alrdy in the room.
Khalid was there, so i just sit beside him la kan.
the guys + Syaf = super irritating.
Khai could even say "eh, put candle here."
-_-
then, Syaf took a picture!
haiyohhh.
& since i knew who Khalid likes, the guys sort of asked me who he likes when i was dancing. -_-
but i didn't tell la of course.
Syaf said she still kept a picture of me & Khalid "holding hands". BUT WE DIDN'T, it only LOOKED.
then Khai said "Khalid bising. Amirah bising."
then he off the switch to the piano.
like, 5 times or smth?
they continued asking Khalid who he likes, then Khai said "eh, tadi kau bilang kau suker Amirah kan?"
c'mon la, he SO don't like me lor.
vice versa. :D
liar. haha.
then the sec 2 girls watched me & Khalid play a few songs la kan.
because, yeah, in band, so rmbr a lot of song notes even though not all learn in secondary sch.
he played the lower octave so kind of like the sound. haha.
Syaf; ni semue datang nak tengok couple je ke pe?
haha. so irritating sey. lol.
we are NOT together or whatsoever it is.
really.
& we learnt new steps kan?
so i couldn't turn around properly.
kesian Allisa, kept bumping into her
sampai terjatoh kat lantai sey.
my ankles hurt. ):
gah, who cares? lol.
Abang Am said that he performed in last year's NDP, & he recalled that he fall down during the actual thing.
LOL.
he was bleeding but he said he didn't realise, until his friend muttered while dancing "eh, kaki kau berdarah la sial."
but what Abang noticed, "eh, seluar aku koyak la sial."
the whole class laughed la.
then he said, he dance so sexily cause koyak until his thigh.
haha.
damn funny la him.
went 7-eleven, got missed call from Khalid, called him back.
LOL.
he wants to admit to the girl that he likes!
LOL. yeah.
haha.
so tired now.
& Asyur never online again.
waste my time only.
haha.

okay, i'm damn pissed off right now.

everything felt like a mistake.

2009-01-27T16:09:00.004+08:00

updated about CNY & another post. (:

right now, i don't feel well.
somehow, i'm going to break down soon.
but i don't think so la kan.
just finished writing the song "Unreal" unknowingly thanks to someone.
stuck with "With You".
don't know why i'm writing all this.
like it means anything.
it never did.

CNY celebrations.

2009-01-23T19:35:00.000+08:00

CNY celebrations was okay.
& i actually woke up late.
but i'm so happy, i could reach sch in 5 mins.
obviously, i got ready first la kan.
haha.
the performance weren't so bad la.
it would take courage to be up there.
-claps-

first was Chinese Orchestra, & i guess it was okay. (:
then, Andrew & another guy ( i forgot who. XD) sang "It's My Life".
they were so sporting la.
Andrew, playing his guitar, like so cool.
so called, "hotshot" of the sch.
the other guy seriously acted like a rockstar, haha, nevermind.
okay bah.
until kneel down like that.

then two Alumnis, Demas & Jessica, sang Wo Huai Nian De, not so bad.
haha.
quite sweet. lol.

the chinese dance was okay? yeahh, great effort, i think.
& the lion people took so long to peel the oranges that the lions probably slept for half an hour.
& within seconds, murdurous oranges were like flying in the air squirting juice.
they didn't peel some and it's like even more murdurous.
half of the time the lions were not moving lor. slack!

then one orange hit Linda, cause Shahirah throw. haha, good one.
i obviously didn't manage to get any sweets.
but when the councillors threw it, the sweets hit my face?
lol.

they had an encore. haha. still cheered la.
went down for recess. on the way down, Aylwin saw me, said "eh, Amirah, hi!" LOL?
& my friends make fun again, rmbring me about the pic that they took.
gahh.
after recess, Mr Ng gave me $100 to keep.
lol, of course not la, duh.
after we give the oranges alrdy, i have to treat the class for drinks at 7-eleven, then the rest of the money go to class fund.
so rich la?
we went to block 407 & gave out those oranges.
well, most of us, just hang at the door.
-_-
then i had to try to organise everyone so, that small 7-eleven wouldn't be blocked by 43 students. Syaf help of course.
people keep asking who's the class treasurer.
i know i'm short, but how many times must ask one? can't see, is it?
had a difficult time, & i had to pay 3 times, so got back three receipts.
haha.
then went to my house, to relax before tarian/randai.
Sec 1s, went to my block, & the teacher asked if we were joining them?
seriously, i know i'm small, but c'mon la, do i look like a sec 1?
on the other hand, maybe i do, haha.
sometime later, Shalinah, Dhiyyah & Shira came.
chilled.
then went tarian/randai.
we had to call the guys, who were playing soccer, & they just ignore us.
i mean, seriously, we were waving to them, can't see?
Hafiz still can say "eh, tak nampak ah. tak nampak ah."
-.-
it's as if we're mad women.
haha.
guys had to divide into tarian & randai also.
& i went tarian. okay la.
they were so funny la kan.
haha.
it's confirmed that me, Shira & Syaf have to participate in SYF this year.
great.
but maybe, it could be fun. :D
yeahh, then went home. (:

everything was like a lie.

i never wanted lose you;

2009-01-21T22:35:00.003+08:00

i shall update the posts soon.
:D

i've finally realise smth.
smth that i've failed to realise.
okay, this means the same thing. LOL.
* going bad to the 'sad' atmosphere -_- *

you would never realise how insignificant you can be to someone.
until, it would all come back to you.
you would never realise how angry you can be at someone.
until, it would all come back to you.
you would never realise how words don't mean anything.
until, it would all come back to you.
you would never realise how someone might not love you the way you love them.
until, it would all come back to you.

maybe life is unfair. but i don't know.
i never wanted to be angry. i never wanted to hate anyone.
no matter how hard, i would look at the brighter side.
how would you feel, if someone never told you they appreciate you?
how would you feel, if you were accused when you were trying to help?
how would you feel, if you knew someone or anyone doesn't love you back?

well, i don't know.
just some questions.
i don't know what's going on lately.
i've haven't been myself.
maybe it's true when they say, if you laugh too much, you'll cry just as much too.

IT'S YOUR B'DAY. :D

2009-01-20T20:25:00.003+08:00

HAPPY B'DAY RIDZ!
lol, so i came to sch & ask Syaf is she wished Ridz alrdy.
& she didn't!
OMG.
haha.
true to what Syaf said, thank you for being someone i can irritate.
at least, not in real life. unlike Syaf.
haha.
i think i told you a lot of things alrdy right?
omg, yeahh.
i told you so many things, others wouldn't know. haha.
other than my clique la, of course.
OMG. i DID tell you many things. haha.
okay, i shall stop.

HAPPY B'DAY! again.
& thanks for being Syaf's darling.
LOL.

i wish everything would be different.

2009-01-19T19:51:00.007+08:00

AZLINDAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
DELETE THAT LAST POST LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
-_-

& i'm so tired to blog today.
i actually did my hw in sch.
nothing much today.
had sastera as first period.
when Khai, Linda & Syaf went in, they closed the door.
*ader pape tu*
haha.
when it FINALLY opened, Hafiz let me in first so yeahh, then in the end, pergi laen kelas. -_- haha.
Linda is so irritating!
some of the things she did was spill water on my skirt, then spill water on my face.
-_-
wth kan?
i changed tables to the one in front.
then Aylwin, my band senior, came by, & he wanted to help me with my hw while waiting for his twin brother.
haiyohh, suddenly so nice, cause he was bored?
he was so annoying with his A Maths speech. haha.
then someone HAD to take a PICTURE & post it on her blog.
nehmind.
i shouldn't be angry about it BECAUSE i'm a patient person.
OMG, I FEEL LIKE KILLING YOU, but no, i shouldn't. :D

nothing to begin with, so there's nothing to end. (:
i get it.

i never saw this.

2009-01-18T21:47:00.003+08:00

okay, my hands are in pain.
shall update this post soon.
Khalid la, just for $1, like want to rip my hands off.
-_-
running around the whole section, still not enough la.
pain, y'know?
& please la my dear seniors, wearing a ring, doesn't mean i'm engaged and especially not married.
PARTICULARLY NOT TO KHALID.
really stop these stories with Khalid kan?
is Alvina that he wants.
can't you see the love between them?
:D
omg, lol.
haha.

thinking of what we'll never be.

HAPPY B'DAY!

2009-01-16T22:35:00.005+08:00

HEY. i just want to say;

HAPPY B'DAY SYAFIQAH!
i'm not going to write long long posts about you, about how great you are, etc. cause that's what everyone would do so i shall be different & just write a sentence.

you have been a real great friend. :D

p/s i was actually scared when Fazri told me the "ghost" story. -_-

going downhill? maybe now, i know.

forgotten.

2009-01-15T22:48:00.003+08:00

OMG.
i forgot what i wanted to post about for the ENTIRE WEEK.
-_-
aiyohhh.
nehmind.
i'm going to rmbr it soon.
so, there, i put a very random pic of me & my sis, so it the post isn't so plain. XD
& yes, i was wearing a Titanic shirt. haha.

OKAY. REMEMBERED.

& i wished you'd be here.

2009-01-14T19:30:00.003+08:00

HMT was first period so we had to do an exercise.
it was quite fun, really.
funny, i mean.
for "bertaraf", Linda wrote "bertarap".
LOL?
we can't stop laughing.
okay, i can't stop laughing.
though it ain't funny.
XD
we had PE later on, & i'm not the CAPTAIN!
:D
i'm actually pretty happy about it.
'cause being captain for sec 1 & 2, i really never felt like i was doing my job sey.
haha. i feel so bad.
but hey, Shira, Dhiyyah & Syaf were the other 3 captains, so it's like, we will ALWAYS, compete against each other which makes it fun.
rmbred that Uncle Tan, as he like us to call him, kept on calling us "Cantik-cantik saudari."
LOL? haha. i've been using a lot of LOLs lately. XD
he still rmbr me. haha.
we ran 4 rounds around the sch, & i was really out of breath.
it was an achievement being the 3rd girl to finish.
i thought everyone was ahead of me.
sadded then.
haha.
we played basketball, & the ball hit my head!
too short, then can't see, is it?
HAHA. (see that i'm not using LOL. XD)

during English, we got back our compositions; "About Me".
Ms Phua had a reflection regarding some people, & she showed it on screen.
i was happy that my name wasn't there.
until, i realised mine was the last one.
it seems like EVERYONE noticed my name, & what she wrote sey!
"Amirah has a crush.."
HAIYOHHH. -_-
everyone was like asking me, & when Ms Phua went through, they were all like looking at me.
so scary la.
haha.
but she did say "ask her la. it's not what you all think."
YES, & it ISN'T what you all think. haha.

one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out of the door.

all i did, was think about..

2009-01-13T19:19:00.004+08:00

Linda is so bad one!
haiyohh, she hit me against the locker la!
& i was limping all the way to the canteen.
-_-
grrr. hate her.
& Syafiqah plus her, were singing this song, probably for like the WHOLE world to hear.
"everybody go find heart, go find heart, go find heart. everybody, go find heart. (insert name here) broke her heart."
LOL?
so irritating can? haha.
they were like singing it for EVERYONE.

(kalau suare sedap takpe la. XD)

Tuesday;
apparently, people like hitting me.
haiyohh, so nice one meh?
i sound so Alvina-ish. XD
so we had HMT today, & it was "Bacaan".
Cikgu Senan called my name, & i can't believe i was soft!
really la, that soft meh? the classroom so small sey.
after my turn was Syafiq's turn.
-.-
Linda & Shira were like smiling & smiling (muke macam nak kener sepak gituk) & made fun cause of that one similarity.
Linda; fated la katerkan.
aper saje la budak ni.

she was right. i was dumb. i couldn't see this.

when everything felt like a lie.

2009-01-09T20:34:00.005+08:00

shall right a post today regarding the last few days.

Wednesday;
i was fasting that day, & Azlinda actually tempt me to eat.
wahh, how can a friend be so evil? lol.
& i was chosen to be the class treasurer by the form teacher.
aiyohh, how can my name be so unlucky one?
but yeahh, it'll teach me some responsibility.
haha.
had band today, & when Alvina knew that i was fasting, she hit me a lot of times cause she wanted to test my patience.
told ya she was evil.
evil, i tell you, EVIL!
haha.

Thursday;
i can't rmbr a thing, except that i had band today. well it was sectionals, but i think the whole band came.
Swee Yee & Wen Xi taught the rest, while me, Cindy & Alvina, played by ourselves then polish the instruments.

Friday;
English was first lesson, & it was funny as per usual. Bio was next, & the teacher began grouping us. i was forced to be the leader. which means, i have to write a lot of things. they purposely one. haha. my handwriting that neat meh? even the teacher commented. i felt like a freak who adores perfection. haha.

during recess, Linda keep hitting me. haiyohh. EVIL. sakit tau? lol. then she hit me, sampai i hit this guy, i shan't say who, & my head was in pain. cause when i hit him, i think my head, hit his shoulder. but he wasn't facing me, so yeahh, okay. & i said "adoi, astaghfiruallahalazim, sorry." LOL. what else could i say? & i was holding my head. his friend laughed at me, i think. haha.

& i forgot to bring my band shoes! haha. forced Alvina to accompany me home. but i did help her a bit with her band job. see? i'm not all bad. altogether, it took 15 minutes, to go my house, take my things, then come back sch. Alvina keep running, & i was carrying my bag. & hello? it was Friday. so i was bringing so many books. haha. CCA showcase was today, & we followed our groupings, A & B.
basically, the band split into two. not so evenly, i guess.
cause group A, which i was in, had only 3 trumpeteers, all sec 3s, while group B has 4 trumpeteers, some of which are sec 4s.

haha, like it made a difference. we took turns to play. it was tiring. we played like 3 times? all the same song. me & Cindy went around the sch, pasting posters for band. we were very busy. lol. smiled at some juniors, of course. they still rmbr me. haha. at first, i was told by Wen Xi, that i was a representative of A to mend the booth. so i went there, & apparently, there were too much members mending the booth alrdy. just my good luck. haha. it took quite long, then after dismissal, we went to eat @ lot 1.

Khalid & Alvina laughed all the way from sch, to Lot 1. LITERALLY. & they didn't know why they were laughing. Cindy & i tried to run away, but they always caught up. freaks.
told ya they have always had chemistry. but many people in band didn't see that. it was always me & Khalid. -_-
Khalid laughed so much, that he cried. haiyohh. we didn't know where to eat. haha. so Alvina said, i was KFC, she was LJS & Cindy was MacD. she started counting. lol. we took so much troubles just choosing the place to eat. it was MacD at first, but we didn't want. then it was LJS, but there was too much people so in the end it was KFC. lol.
i don't know why, but i started laughing in KFC. haha.
when everyone stop laughing, it was only me. i'm crazy. no doubt. haha.

went home & i'm unbelievably tired.

cause i gave you a chance.

i had hope that you..

2009-01-06T20:09:00.003+08:00

just another typical school day.
it was quite boring i guess.
there's TWO English periods today.
like whatthe..
but, Ms Phua is so fun!
first HMT lesson.
3L1 + 3M2 + 3M1.
the third class that we can be with Dhiyyah & Shira again.
:D
Cikgu Senan is okay.
he is definitely very humourous.
& after all that, prepared for BAND.
as expected, we practised Bring Me To Life, which we murdered.
haha, so contradicting.
practice ended at 4.30 to give us time to prepare for the concert later on.
after almost 1 hour, Alvina finally make up her mind to follow me.
-_-
first say no time to go home, then want to bath.
haiyohhh.
she emo-ed outside the door.
XD
prayed first then we were off.
we ate at 7 eleven.
i say like it's a restaurant. haha.
BECAUSE of Alvina, i dropped my spoon.
grrr.
lol.

went in school with Cindy, & after a few "admin" purposes, we were finally off to Home Team Academy where SPF Band Concert is held.
i mean, they live there, so it's like, we're entering their "house".
we went in, & realised that our band is bigger than the performance.
people were actually looking at us.
in the end, sat in between Khalid & Cindy.

Khalid is so blur la.
his seat got folded back up, & he didn't realise it.
so he fell.
i'm TOTALLY fine that he fell.
but he pulled my hand ah.
haiyohh.
i probably twisted my veins or smth.
so vigorous sey.
sempat tarik tangan orang time nak jatuh. tsk tsk tsk.
haha.
he actually slept during the performance.
well, almost.
while people clapped, he yawned.
he yawned during the most attractive performance ever!
because..
because..
i shall keep the suspense going..
because..

TAUFIK BATISAH WAS THERE!
i wasn't aware of it ah. now i know why there are a lot of girls who bothered to come. lol.
i'm not a big fan of his, but i know i made Linda jealous.
haha.
he's not bad looking, y'know.
he can dance well.
he sang the english version of Gadis Itu, & I Wanna Spend My Lifetime Loving You, a duet with a SGT there.
turned out, he served in band during his NS.
the 2nd song, was definitely my favourite.
cause it was sort of the love theme in Mask Of Zorro.
they showed a short video of the love story in the screen.

we went for a reception after the show.
in the end, we didn't eat. haha.
i actually thought that those statues on display where they are on stretchers, they were REAL.
haha.
went back to MRT Station, ate at McD with Khalid, Alvina & Cindy.
then went home.
i shall pester Linda who's so jealous. XD

& i can't believe i'm missing you.

maybe, just maybe.

2009-01-05T19:46:00.003+08:00

okay, so, it's the 2nd day of sch.
i can't rmbr anything but i know we have malay literature & HISTORY. <3
both of which we'll combine class with 3L1.
history was interesting.
the DM is teaching us.
haha.
not so bad.
so i won't slack.
:D
we got to know that literature homeworks are suppose to be done in another blog.
hais.
nevermind, it might be fun.
but, there's still a lot of books to be read.
those taking malay literature are all together.
1 out of 3 classes where me, Syaf, Shira & Dhiyyah are together again.
we divide so equally la.
Azlinda & Shalinah. then the four of us.
Syaf + Mira + Linda & Shira + Dhiyyah + Shalinah.
haha.
those taking malay lit was, i think,
Hafiz.
Ridz.
Khai.
Asyur.
Faris.
Haziq.
Syafiq.
Syazana.
Allisa.
Shalinah.
Shahirah.
Mardhiyyah.
Azlinda.
Syafiqah.
me.
i think i miss one de.
haha.
today was quite fun la.
manage to eat in LONGHILL CAFETERIA.
that's so random. haha.

:D

p/s i cheered him up! lol.

the start of something new.

2009-01-02T19:09:00.001+08:00

i woke up today, got ready for the band performance.
sad that we can't join the march back.
being sec 2s '08, it's the last time we're going to be with our class before we're separated.
but anyway, we warm ourselves up.
i checked the class list & got the shock of my life when i discovered Linda is in my class!
aiyohhh.
my life won't be at peace. XD
aww, there's only 4 frontiers left.
me, Syafiqah, Le Tian & Diko.
i'm going to miss 201 Frontiers a lot.
like they say, once a frontier, always a frontier. :D
after around almost 2 hour, sec 4s began coming in, & we began our fillers.
we played "shout it out" as the first piece.
followed by "gonna fly now" then "land of 1000 dances".
FINALLY, we played Majulah Singapura.
i admit, i screw up a little.
certain notes went off pitch, but it wasn't so bad ah.
manage to cover it up.
we took the pledge, then continued playing the sch song.
went for recess after dismissed.
we went to our class, got to know our friends & form teacher.
after assembly, ate at KFC with clique, then went home.

new class.
new friends.
new classmates.
new teachers.

but always a frontier.
'll miss you guys a lot. (:
how quite we were when we were 101.
but we worked hard for the cheer comp.
got through finals, but we didn't win.
this year, we tried hard again.
got through finals, & WE WON.
though we fought a lot during the training, we ended up cheering about it.
we even lied together.
okay.. that isn't so good, but still, the class spirit is there.

MAKE SURE there are more outings to come. ((:

i thought of you just too much.

2008-12-30T21:22:00.003+08:00

band practice again, today.
woke up, then got a call from Khalid.
he asked to accompany him while he get his haircut done.
i suddenly felt like a mother.
-_-
haha.
but, of course, in the end, he didn't have his haircut.
so, went to sch earlier, met up with Alvina.
we noticed that the canteen was called "LOGILL Cafeteria".
wonder where the "N" & "H" went.
we toured around the sch like we never toured before.
well, we didn't.
i'm officially done of being pushed around by Alvina & Khalid.
so irritating couple. oops, i said COUPLE. haha.
i wished i convinced Alvina to open that door, so i can push her inside & lock her up.
let Khalid's heart crushed so i'll be successful in forbidding their.. forbidden love.
haha.
doesn't even make sense.

we learnt a few songs today.
practiced "Land of 1000 Dances" which i think, is QUITE boring.
had more fun in "Bring Me To Life" though i can't deny it's more tricky.
it definitely sounds a lot easier when Evanescense sang it.

The. Room. Was. Too. Small. And. Stuffy. For. The. WHOLE!. Band.
quote from Khalid. haha.
there was more pressure to play louder.
after a while, we had to go outdoor.
Alvina was busy hypnotising herself, "i'm feeling very cold.. the weather is very cold.. i'm freezing.."
& i was saying "oh my god. it's super hot. even Superman can't stand in here. i'm melting luh."
she scolded me for interrupting her hypnotism. haha. yay me!
went through the songs.
& i was terribly tired after that.
when Alvina made a lame joke, i just stared at her and said, "i'm too tired to laugh" then i started laughing. then she stared. haha.
bersurai-ed, & we went KFC again. with Cindy.
& we were obviously making so much noises.
aiyohhh.
Alvina just can't stop laughing.
she said she laughed cause everytime i said i'm too tired too laugh, i'll still laugh. LOL.
i asked Khalid to help me buy my favourite "Fried Mars Balls" & he said "what? Fried Balls from Mars?"
LOL.
& he actually said that to the person.
haha.
can't stop laughing.

i'm laughing just by writing this post. lol.
aight people, BYE!
i'll update about the rest.

what now?

2008-12-29T20:57:00.003+08:00

'kay, so today had band practice.
decided to come earlier since Khalid said he needed help to help Alvina. haha.
i taught her how to figure out the 12 scales, while i redo mine. & Khalid happily went off to do his duty.
Alvina is super irritating. I-R-R-I-T-A-T-I-N-G.
i'm so irritated by her, i want to spell the word out. lol.

Alvina; did your voice change or it's been so long since i met you?
me; confirm it's been so long since you met me.
Alvina (to Khalid) ; her voice got change right?
Khalid; yeahh, her voice like became sexier.

LOL. what's with "sexier"? haha.

Daniel's funny, as per usual.
i struggled through my "solo" part, as per usual.
Cindy tried very hard to play the "solo" part too, as per usual.
& my shirt got Alvina germs all over it, AS PER USUAL.
she loooooooove to clean her sweaty palms on people.
aiyohhh.

& i got to know the canteen name is Longhill Cafeteria.
how did they even get the name? why they chose it?
i know the translation is Bukit Panjang but, the name is so.. nevermind.
rofl.
Alvina was saying that they should call it "THE Canteen"
And they should bold, underline, caps and colour the "THE".

"Heys, it's recess! Let's go to THE canteen!"
"Which canteen?"
"THE canteen!"

See! How cool would that be?
haha, i think it actually is better.
after waiting for ages for Khalid, me & Alvina went to KFC with him.
i think they take turns to make my life as miserable as it could be.
grrr. lol.
Khalid took the same meal as me, & i think my smiling muscles ache so much that i should just frown my entire life. haha.
we laughed about almost everything.
tsk tsk tsk.
see what an Alvina can do to you.
i laughed so much, i cried. HAHA.
i forgot what we laughed about though. -_-
ha.

went home. very tireddd.

i really miss you.

2008-12-26T22:35:00.002+08:00

boredddd. still here.

holiday-ing. (:

still holding on to my promise that i'll update soon. :D

i miss you.

2008-12-25T12:29:00.002+08:00

on a holiday. better miss me. haha.
will update soon. (:

HAPPY B'DAY!

2008-12-17T23:45:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 14TH B'DAY, FUZZY!
i mean, Fazri.
lol.
you're FINALLY fourteen,
may all your dreams & wishes come true eh?
& sorry i didn't tell who i like the other time,
really sorry. haha.

'kay.

bye people.

another love story.

2008-12-15T14:39:00.001+08:00

hello!

haha. okay, nothing funny. lol.

so, i watched this indon movie on Saturday.
it's called "Cinta Pada Pandangan Kedua."

it revolves around two sisters, the older one, Meyla who have a pacar, Gilang that loves her a lot. she, on the other hand, is like using him.
she ask him to pay for almost everything.
she's very sexy, all grown up, so different to that of her younger sister, Mawar, who's sweet natured, cute & very shy who follows everywhere Meyla goes.
she adores Gilang, but not to the extent of wanting him.
he was super sweet la!
on the way home, Meyla was sleeping.
Mawar wanted to wake her up, but Gilang didn't let her to saying to let her rest.

then he carry her la! haiyoh, so sweet luh. haha.
Gilang needed to show his choice to be his wife, to his mother, but Meyla wasn't ready.
so, Meyla said that Mawar will accompany him to meet his mother.
they had an artist paint their picture for his mother to see.
as she needed to dress up, Gilang grew attracted to her, as she looked very sweet.
when his mother saw them, she quickly assumed that Mawar was Meyla.
she wanted to explain, but Gilang ask her to play along.
he postponed on giving the gift, which is the picture of him & Meyla.
seeing how close his mother grew towards Mawar, he can't explain what really happened, cause he doesn't want to disappoint.

he got attracted to her since then.
she fell asleep in the car, & doing the same thing he did, he carried her to the bed, where her sister was too.
then, they made a portrait of them together, which they would give to his mother.
Meyla got to know that his mother was coming, but Gilang explained that his mother actually thought Mawar was Meyla.
though furious at first, she let it go.
when his mother came, as expected, recognised Mawar as Meyla, which she really like to be her daughter in law.
but got a different view of Meyla, whom she thought as Mawar, as she wore revealing clothes.
while eating lunch, his mother expressed her feelings on how she like Mawar & how she doesn't like girls who wear revealing clothes, shop like there was no stop, all of which Meyla was.
she just left the table.
the next day, Meyla had a photo shoot, & she found out Mawar was missing.
she & Gilang was with each other, where he expressed how he felt about her.
she ran away, saying it wasn't right.
then he caught up with her & said "pandang mata gue that kata loe nggak cinta sama gue."
"loe tipukan?" then he hugs her.
S-W-E-E-T!

but Meyla saw it, & slapped Gilang.
she then grab Mawar away.
she then explained that through her ways, she actually cared for Mawar.
"kakak nggak mau kamu pakai pakaian sexy karena kakak nggak mau orang melihat body kamu. kakak nggak benarkan kamu pacaran, karena kamu terlalu polos. kakak nggak mau kamu menjadi orang nggak bener, sebab itu kamu selalu kakak bawak. kakak nggak mau ketemu mamanya Gilang karena kakak belom siap tinggalkan kamu? semuanya karena kamu!"
such a good sister sey.
Gilang continued chasing the two of them, & he almost got hit by a car, but Mawar tried saving him as both got hurt.
when Mawar was conscious, she ran away, cause she didn't want her sister to give up her happiness just for her.
but Gilang managed to find her, at the place where he admitted his feelings towards her.
he then hugs her, in an effort to comfort her.
awwwwwww. sweet banget deh pokoknya!
Meyla saw it & she finally gave in, saying that Mawar "lebih pantes" with Gilang.
haha.
told ya i can't stand sweet stories.
*melts*
haha.

BYE!

Cara Cari Pacar.

2008-12-14T08:46:00.000+08:00

YOOOOOOOO! (like there's no other start)

so.. ystrdy night, i watched an indon movie, as always.
haha. it's like, the story's so predictable, but it's so sweettttttttt! :D
ystrdy's was about a girl, who wasn't pretty, & guys didn't like her.
using a book as a guide, "Panduan Cinta" (love guide), she changed her personality & became attractive.
she began her plan in attracting a super C-U-T-E guy (LOL), & finally managed to win his heart over.
OH MY GOD LA.
his way is super duper S-W-E-E-T! haha.
first, he gave a CD outside the girl's house, which has a note that says "Putar Aku".
when she play it, it was from that guy.
& he was saying that, that's what he do, since he couldn't do it in real life.
he finally admitted he likes her;
"kedua, gue suka sama loe dan ketiga, buka pintu loe sekarang."
then she opened, & there he was.
standing so innocently, with the absolutely cute face! haha.
there were papers in his hand.
the first one "Mau jadi cewek gue gaaaaaaakkk...?" (would you want to be my girlfriend? XD)
she didn't give a response, then he flip to the next paper, "Mau dehhh pleaaassseee..?"
she just smiled, then he change to another paper, "Di jamin nggak nyesel lhoooo..."
he gave her another paper, & she wrote her answer.
YESSSSSSSSSSS!
okay, haha.
LOL, cute banget deh!
tak boleh angkat.
kener seret. HAHA.
but then, she met another guy, who was the leader of a motorbike gang, & one of them accidentally dirtied the girl's shirt.
using it as an excuse/revenge, she got close to the guy, & after THREE days, he asked if she wanted to be his pacar.
BODOH BANGET SIH JADI ORANG? udah punya cowok keren gitu, masih aja mau yang laen.
haha.
but finally, she was caught red-handed.
as in, her cute boyfriend, found her with that new boyfriend.
both admitting that they were her boyfriend, the CUTE boyfriend broke up with her.
while the other said that, he alrdy had a girlfriend anyway, & since they both knew it alrdy, that it doesn't matter and they still can be together. (wth?)
but she didn't want to, cause she loves that cute guy.
after getting the Panduan Cinta back, having to lose it, she quickly found the chapter "tangkap basah selingkuh" , hoping for tips.
but it was empty.
asking for help from her "housekeeper" (i think), she knew where the previous owner lived, the one who wrote the book.
she met her, where she explained why she wrote the book.
she asked, why didn't she write it?
then she answered that, even after thinking of it for so long, she still couldn't find the answer.
"karena, dalam Kamus Cinta itu tiada istilah selingkuh. Kamu harus terima kondisi cinta, baik burok, dengan apa adanya. Ya.. itu namanya cinta.."
so she finally realised, she could do nothing, but to say sorry.
when he finally wanted to listen to her, she explain herself, saying it was "iseng-iseng aja koq" that she had another pacar, but she still love him.
"karena ada seseorang yang selalu mendukung aku. dan itu, orang yang amat aku cintai, iaitu kamu. kamu yang selalu dukung aku. itu kamu."
"gue yakin loe tahu yang gue sakit hati banget, melihat loe dengan cowok lain. sampai hari ini, sakit hati ya masih ada. dan sampai perasaan ini hilang, gue nggak bisa bagi loe jawapannya."
:( haha.
he met up with the other guy, & got to know that he alrdy had a girlfriend, before he went with her.
"gue sebenernya, mau lepasin dia, karena, gue pikir, loe lebih baik daripada gue. tapi gue salah."
:DDDDDDD
the other guy, didn't seem to care.
so, the girl opened her door, & saw the CD there.
she played it, & he said that he did it again cause he can't talk to her face to face, that he still love her, but he's very heartbroken. so, he said, "lihat nanti aja deh."
she waited outside her house, for very long, waiting for him to come.
when she felt like giving up, he came.
using his same technique of using papers, he asked "Mau jadi pacarku lagi gaaakkk..?"
instead of giving an answer, she hugged him tightly.
he looks shock at first, then he hugs her back!
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
SO SWEETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT LAAAAAAAAAAAA.
haha.
shall maintain myself.
certain times, sometimes, no, most of the times, i'll admit, ALL THE TIME, i can't stand watching super sweet stories.
how i would feel if i was that girl?
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
but stories like that, don't come true.
there's no sweet guys left in this world.
LOL.
no offence. :D
i shan't stop watching the indon movies.
:DD

bye!

tired, tired, tired.

2008-12-12T19:25:00.000+08:00

FAZRI!
sorry couldn't meet you ystrdy eh?
padehal, i said i would come. & i can do the housework myself la. don't need to help. haha.
firstly, it was raining, making me lazier to go out. haha. okay, lame excuse.
secondly, band training was quite tiring.
i think i cycled too much during the band outing, that even doing standard marching, my leg could get cramps. lol. ni ah, Khalid nak sangat cycling.

i was so out of breath during practice.
we only played the national anthem & school song though.
for the national anthem, there was 1st Cornet & 1st Trumpet, & Mr Daniel wanted both.
he chose only 3 to play the 1st Trumpet part.
3 is okay, since there's only 6 1st Trumpeteers, but that part that we play, is so imprtnt ah, as mentioned by Daniel.
ystrdy, only me & Cindy came. it's left with the two of us.
but hey, Mr Daniel said we did a good job, though at first, he didn't know we were the ones he chose to play it. yay us! haha.
he was blaming the horn section cause they didn't support us in playing that part.
"you're supposed to support the two of them. i can see their face go red alrdy."
i'm so dark, still can go red meh? haha.
another time, & the hornists still didn't do a good job but i thought it was okay.
"who's playing the 1st Trumpet?"
(me & Cindy raise up our hands)
"you guys got to play super duper turbo loud. imagine that if you don't play, the band will die or smth. (LOL?) & hornists, you got to help these damsels in distress la. this part need to be strong. it need to be heard cause you're the only ones playing it. the two of them can be heard. good stuff." LOL.
since then, people keep referring to me & Cindy as "damsel".
-_- haha. so lame sey.
throughout, i keep getting out of breath. so did Cindy. wah, need to train more le.
it was super tiring. there's no way we can't play, cause it's super obvious.
during break, Mr Daniel trained with us a bit. it helps la.
i got to improve on my breathing. like it's so difficult to learn how to breathe properly. haha.
suddenly, i'm reminded of my primary school band.
we got a silver, & somehow i felt it was because of me.
there were comments about the soloist, & i don't think it was that good.
it's like, i trained very hard just for that solo part, but on the SYF day, i could tell that i was shivering.
that's why i like being in this band. even if we got a silver, we know it's cause we did it together. i don't blame myself the way i used to.
LOVE YOU BAND! haha, so semangat.

so, Fazri, really sorry ah eh. but since you said, it's good that i didn't come cause of that certain reason, then okay ah. :D

(this post is so boring ah. haha.)

p/s i'm still very lazy to post about the band outing. haha.

let go.

2008-12-11T19:05:00.000+08:00

"When i fell while finding love,
Looked up & there you were.
& when the rain may fall,
I don't seem to care at all.."

part of the lyrics to my absolutely-not-nice,-what-the-heaven-i-compose song, Now & Then. (:
but how i wished, nothing ever happened.
i'm not blaming you for anything, cause i know, no matter what you said, it's YOU who's too good for me.
i won't lie that i wish it would last longer, but who am i kidding right?
last long with her, 'kay? (:
promise that i can forget you & things would just be the same again.
the way it should be. :D

p/s. i finish editing my post on jalan raya the other time. XD
p/p/s. will be posting about my band outing soon.

Selamat Hari Raye Haji!

2008-12-09T22:21:00.000+08:00

yo people.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI!

(i know it's belated. haha.)

hurt.

2008-12-09T11:47:00.000+08:00

hurt.

thanks Asyur, for listening to my crap, haha.
Khai, for trying to cheer me up. (:
Fazri, for not mentioning him & talked to me when i felt alone, even when you don't know anything. lol.
Ridzwan, for ALWAYS trying to make everything seem better.
ADAM, cause you said i should mention. haha. for making me feel better & saying you'd cry if i did. (:
Aishah, for never stopping to make me happier. :D
Syafiqah, for never being missing.
Azlinda, for helping me through.
Syafiq, for saying that there's something special in everyone. (:
Shahirah, for always being there for me.
"if you love smth, let it go.
if it come back, it's yours.
if it doesn't, it never was."
haha. Shira, right..

it's sad to know how much it hurts.
but there was no need to say sorry cause it's not your fault.
i was hurt because of my own feelings.
if i didn't have those feelings for you, this won't happen right? (:
& thanks for all the memories you gave.
but you should know, he isn't better than you.
you made me feel like i was someone special.
:D

HSM3 - Can I Have This Dance? (OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO) - Zac Efron & Vanessa Hudgens

(it's just a song i felt like playing. no connections.)

certain things are better left unsaid.
sorry i had to "lie". it was a reason, just not the main one.
it's not that i wasn't allowed to, just that, i didn't want to.
numbness really can't last very long, & it's true. i'll break down when my emotions rush back through.
& i don't want you to see it.
(:

rain. (:

2008-12-08T00:49:00.000+08:00

i met up with Syaf & Myra today.
we were supposed to do our homework in the library, but neither of us brought the books. haha.
too clever, i tell you.
the first place we went was, talking zone.
lol.
but we finally left there after sometime cause we can't stand that people kept on looking at us.
cantek sangat ke? lol.
so, we talked about many things, & i guess, Myra was quite irritated. haha.
cause we didn't include her.
nanti Ridz marah. OOPS! sengaje. lol.
haha.
we bought a scissors, then we went to a playground, i repeat, PLAYGROUND, to cut her hair.
HAHA. i went home first to pray since i was fasting, & it would be wasted if i didn't pray.
then, we met up again, & change to another place, just to keep talking. haha.
sorry eh Ridz, we called you JUST to ask if you were texting Syaf. lol, we were dying to know.
bet you were deaf when you hear us laugh that's so loud. haha.
& even if you say you weren't texting her, we won't believe. cause i alrdy said to Myra, the fact that you answer the call very fast, shows you were on your phone.
lol, & thanks for calling me a "smart ass" for that. LOL.

we played badminton soon after.
Myra, it wasn't my fault that my legs just can't seem to move kan?
haha.
i know you want to play with Ridz la.
& you terlepas cakap so many times la. LOL.
then, there's this two guys that kept on "pheeweet-ing" us.
nak maen pon tak senang.
so irritating la. but we didn't layan of course.
we got our own guys to think about.
LOL.
except me la..

then, it was raining.
but we & Myra continued playing.
in the HEAVY rain.
but it was super fun.
i like the rain, a lot.
everything feels so relax. like, there's nothing on your mind.
i would just look up & my mind would be blank.
haha.
Syaf opened her umbrella, & sempat cakap "Mira, nanti ternampak aper-aper baru tau. haha."
so i said, "huh?! pinjam jacket!"
then she said, "eh takde-takde. tak nampak aper-aper. lol."

then we still continued playing.
haha.
in the rain, of course.
& Syaf said she wanted to kick my stomach?
LOL.
thanks ah Myra, for saying that i could be a model. lol.

FUNNNNNN! (i really love the rain. haha.)

JERA.

2008-12-05T15:51:00.000+08:00

Hitam bukan cirimu
Putih juga bukan cirimu
Jemu ku melihatmu
Tak bercahaya
Seperti memudar

Cinta aku mencinta
Kamu yang aku mau
Namun tak tepat waktu
Ku sudah jera dalam percintaan

Salam hangat untuk cintamu
Aku yang kandas dan patah hati
Biarlah orang memandang lama
Aku tak mau bercinta lagi

Engkau yang dulu pernah ku cinta
Namun terlanjur kau bersamanya
Dan ku terluka oleh cintanya
Kini kau hadir kusudah
Jera

Cinta aku mencinta
Kamu yang aku mau
Namun tak tepat waktu
Ku sudah jera dalam percintaan

Salam hangat untuk cintamu
Aku yang kandas dan patah hati
Biarlah orang memandang lama
Aku tak mau bercinta lagi

Engkau yang dulu pernah ku cinta
Namun terlanjur kau bersamanya
Dan ku terluka oleh cintanya
Kini kau hadir kusudah
Jera..

over?

2008-12-05T10:50:00.000+08:00

i'll have to let it go; & start protecting my heart & soul.

i want that love story.

2008-12-05T06:30:00.000+08:00

We were both young when I first saw you
I closed my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

So, I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Oh oh
Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
But you were my everything to me
I was begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me
They try to tell me how I feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo, save me
I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head
I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad
Go pick out a white dress
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you.

(but it would never come true)

PADANG trip.

2008-12-03T15:49:00.000+08:00

don't mind me.
tak ter-upload the pictures in Padang.
i'm current battling my lazyness disease. (:
editing ~

never wanting to lose you.

2008-11-15T20:58:00.000+08:00

i know i said all of that, but i don't want to lose you.
really.
ever.

OUCH.

2008-11-04T22:12:00.000+08:00

'kay, so today, we had the rehearsal for the performance.
there were only 4 girls, so we worked on the dance while the guys played soccer.
everything went fine, UNTIL, i got hit by the ball.
i actually saw it coming.
& y'know, when guys play soccer, the ball NEVER stays on the ground.
so, it was kind of flew upwards.
it was like a full force hit sey that i fall to the ground.
then Syafiq (02), asked if i was okay, and what the other guys did?
they happily run away then bugged Asyur, to apologise twice for it. lol.
kesian.
& there was a 2nd time, where the ball went over my head.
Hafiz sempat cakap "ader makne tu".
-.-
well, someone said, he guessed the guys felt guilty too, cause they kind of knew it LOOKED painful. walao, still hurts luh. lol. but what's with saying i was a magnet to balls (soccer balls, i mean).
haha. :D

a dream. it came true.

2008-11-02T13:15:00.000+08:00

& you were like a dream come true.
:D

jalan raye.

2008-10-25T14:56:00.000+08:00

jalan raye.

so, today, i went jalan raye with Syafiq, Fazri, Aishah.
& first thing they said when i came out of the bus was, "maseh pendek".

wtheaven kan? haha.
we went lot 1, waited for azhar.

if i knew, i could have just gone there myself kan?

LOT 1 - My house - Aishah's house

pandai sangat ah. haha.
we waited for like 1 hour. let me repeat, ONE hour.
waited and waited. like never ending. haha.
& the guys planned to have a campfire? lol. boys will always be boys.
in the end, we went to Syafiq's house instead.

when we reached, Syafiq actually said, "tak boleh bukak tv tau. kalau bukak, jangan makan."

haha.

but obviously we ate, AND watched the tv. haha.

none of us wanted to take the food ourselves. lol. pemalas kan? :D

then Syafiq asked, "nak banyak ke sikit?"

so i said, "sikit."

Syafiq; "sure? mak aku masak sedap tau."

Fazri; "dier cakap, banyak sikit la."

LOL?

then, dalam banyak-banyak cerite, we watch KUNTILANAK?

grrrr.

dah tau aku takot. sengaje betol.

sorry eh Aishah, & Fazri, i squeezed you guys sampai takde space gituk. haha.

i literally sank down the sofa. haha.

& thanks to Syafiq for giving me many pillows. lol.

it helps.. (sarcastic much? haha.)

& it was so paiseyh that everyone was looking at me, everytime i was afraid. tak maintain, y'know? lol.

so, after that, we went to Azhar's house.

oh my gosh la, the pizza was super nice lor!

& sorry ah guys, i know i'm very cerewet. haha.

i just don't drink tea. idk why.

even though his house was super close to my house, we went to Shasha's house instead.

me & Aishah, sort of left the guys.

'kay, not sort of.

we DID left the guys.

haha.

it's amazing how they managed to still find the house. (:

so then, we went to Aishah's house.

& Syafiq was like "baru sekarang aku pergi rumah dier sey."

SYAFIQ WANTS TO MARRY AISHAH! lol.

he said, "kalau la aku datang meminang dulu. then dalam 18 years old, we get married. okay jugak pe?'

haha, something like that. he's funny ah. haha.

after being rejected, yes rejected, by many houses, we finally arrived at Halima's house.

she's good ah. even when her mother not at home, she let us in.

'cause that day, everytime we call, it seems like everyone wants to go out. lol.

Syafiq & Fazri had their prayers and Syafiq asked Shasha, to take care of his things.

the first thing he came back, was to count his duit raye. he said, one was missing, cause he didn't count out his house. lol.

& SOMEONE CALLED ME CUTE!

haha, 'kay.

shall not elaborate it anymore.

makes me so kembang. but i didn't then, 'kay? lol.

on the way, Syafiq said "AKU? suker Amirah?"

lol, HAHA. nak kener cakap kuat-kuat ke pe? takkan menjadi la. lol.

then, we went to Munawwar's house.

he SERIOUSLY slimmed down.

& he can't rmbr anyone else but me.

HAHA.

proud ah.

he didn't even rmbr Aishah, despite liking her before. haha.

Syafiq tried hard & said "alah, yang most handsome time primary 4 dulu."

oh please, like he's going to rmbr you. LOL.

BUT, he knows me. haha.

andandand, i was about to unconsciously sit beside Syafiq, but i didn't when everyone looked at me "suspiciously". haha.

even he asked "asal korang nak dier ddk sebelah aku?"

haha. that's why ah.

then he started speaking to me so formally. haha.

Fazri teased him about it, & he said "ni kan, adat Melayu".

right.. haha.

finally, we went my house. the LAST house.

to think Syafiq & Fazri could be attracted to my sister? i mean, seriously, MY sister?

lol, she's older la. haha.

then, one time, when i came out of the kitchen, Fazri said "eh, dier dengar tak?"

but i really didn't hear anything ah.

haha.

then Syafiq said "eh, ader orang nak kenal-kenalan ah. mintak number dier from Aishah."

right.. lol.

& he repeated a few times? haha, obviously, i don't believe kan.

then, when we went off, Syafiq said "bye".

& i said "bye" then Fazri said "kiss takde?"

lol, FORGET IT ah. haha.

wow, it's fun.

(when you didn't know, certain things could change.)

FUN.

2008-10-23T20:43:00.000+08:00

so, today, we (me, Shira, Syaf & Dhiyyah) were supposed to receive our prizes. our 8GB IPOD NANOS.

yes, for FREE. haha.

we rushed.
then shouted like mad for tie.
we met miss arliana.
& i was SO surprised shahirah came late. (sarcasm rocks! lol.)
we had to line up besides sec 1s.
it was announced that we won 8 gb ipod nanos. WOWWWW! lol.
sec1s kind of make noise.
my hands was trembling.
& since Shahirah wasn't there, i had to go first, & take two presents.

since i knew Shira was at class, i went back there.
everyone looked at me. omg, so scary luh.
cikgu teoh congratulated.
found & gave gift to shira. Syaf ask us to go back canteen.
then, we took picture.
REJOICE.

we had our leadership training.

& the guy called me Salmah/Sabariah?

wtheaven? haha.

& he calls Saklani, Little India. LOL.

the surprise was that, we went to SANA.

yes, just like that. without any prior notice.
& we got a nice bag sey! like, really cool.

then we went for a break, after a short briefing.

we act as if people wanted to steal our Ipods. haha.
then, after another short briefing about drug, being dangerous & there was certain rated pictures.
after that was role play, & our group was chosen to go, cause of Divya's popularity.

haha.

i didn't want cause i had to act like a mad woman, who was dancing.

the joke of the day.

LOL.

it was fun ah, seriously.

& the malay guys took extra drinks for themselves.

the CANS of drinks. haha.

Hasta La Vista.

2008-10-23T20:15:00.001+08:00

so, it's the last day of school.
i didn't feel anything.
shahirah said khai not at school.
so yeah, he wasn't cause he went for soccer training.
so we talked with miss ana.
thought we didn't bother to go at first.
but we did. cause the movie the rest were watching was rather boring.
then went down from the hall.
we still managed to play in the rain. like i said, i love when it drizzles!
syafiqah asked 06 guys regarding the practices or so.
abeh tak kesah sey. tsk. tsk nak jumpe.
took pictures with class thought a bit felt unappreciated.
but took pictures with DIVYA.
gonna miss you.
i told you a lot of things right? till i cried, then you comfort me. (:
we did the class cheers again! somehow, i feel like i'm going to miss them. it was so fun, & nice to think back, that we won again.
we went down & did some poses (LOL?) and Silas took our pictures upstairs.
so, Syafiqah, finally met Hafiz & Ridz.
i randomly took pictures of them. LOL.
then, i went for band & after what it seemed a long warm-up, we watched camp rock.
it was super-fun! i actually sang along. LOL.
& Alvina has the "what are you doing?" look on her face. haha.
then we were dismissed around 6. (:

:D

2008-10-22T20:14:00.000+08:00

so, today was the 2nd skating lesson.
shahirah was SERIOUSLY irritating me about Han.
situ Han, sini Han.
LOL.
but y'know, he said "bend your knees." & "jalan jauh-jauh." to me.
haha. i didn't hear it. obviously, Shira did kan. she hear/see everything Han did. freak. lol, kiddin'.
one of our "hunk" non-instructor, i mentioned, initially wore long sleeve, but when he was there, he changed to singlet.
what was that? showing off?
lol, haha.
but hey, he was MR SINGAPORE. cool right? haha.
so, we skated, & yeah, i DIDN'T fall. i repeat, DIDN'T fall. haha.
happy giler. :D

the way it is.

2008-10-19T21:00:00.002+08:00

it seems like we're drifting apart,
maybe everything's a lie,
this uncertainty growing from this tension,
maybe i was wrong about everything.
i shouldn't care anymore,
when you don't.
i'll just fall from my wings & never fool myself again.

week update.

2008-10-19T21:00:00.001+08:00

WE WON IPOD NANO!
haha.
8GB somemore.
i mean, like, WE WON?
it was not like the video was a masterpiece or anything pe.
in fact, we were giving up.
we just finished the video, since we started it. :D
rezeki jangan ditolak.
so, today, was the In-Line skating.
& the instructor was a striking resemblance to Miqdad.
haha.
i thought the two hunks that brought us there was the instructors. i bet if they flex their muscles, it would explode. lol.
everyone commented to me, that our "instructors" were hot. haha.
in-line skating was fun!
but tiring.
but painful.
but aching.
okay, i think that's all.
haha.
can't wait for the next one! :D

thanks.

2008-10-15T17:31:00.001+08:00

nothing happened during sch today.
while waiting for Lindee, i talked to Divya.
well, she asked me certain things that became personal.
while explaining, to think, i actually cried.
ugh. weak.
but yeah, thanks Divya, going to miss you next year.
i felt a lot better that day. (:

just stop it.

2008-10-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

don't say you want to berdamai when that's not even the truth.
we don't want to?
we're being selfish?
who's the one that got nothing to say for herself everytime we bring up the problem & just have to say "i'm not wrong".
that's stupid.
i was so stupid to even trusted you in the first place!
you changed!
even your primary school friends said it themself.
oh, i don't care?
well then, you don't know me.

i don't want to think about this anymore.

2008-10-12T22:01:00.000+08:00

seriously, i couldn't take it anymore.
my dad keep on shouting, my mum keep on nagging, my sis don't care about me.
at least, i thought i had friends.
true friends.
when i thought it couldn't get any worst, i lost them.
i didn't realise how insignificant i was. to them.

it gets so bad that even when i close my eyes, trying to rest my mind, i could still cry.
it's all my fault & i hate me.
i couldn't keep up with my dad's standard.
i couldn't follow my mother's demands.
i'm tired of always listening to my sister's reasons for not being there for me.
i couldn't be half the friend my friends deserve.
even when they alrdy think of me as a problem, they just kept quiet.
when i didn't want to share, they would encourage me to let it all out.

my sis always said the friends you rmbr, will be the friends you met in sec sch.
& even i know it's true.
they weren't just friends.
they were what i thought true friends.
in primary sch, i can't find any friends like them.
the kind that i would share everything.
the ones that would care for me.
but guess, it was only my thoughts.

someone said, "friends come and go anytime" but for me "friends come and go anytime, but best friends stay forever".

it seems like i've lost everthing. those that are so close to me.
i don't even know it would end up like this.
guess i've put too much hopes.
i tried many times to make it up, but, they don't seem to care.
i treasured these friendships so much.
i even argued with my mum that they were good friends.
how could i not see this was coming?

usually things change for the better. but this change, won't be.
just going to end up with this two songs lyrics.

Cheetah Girls - It's Over

;Four voices perfectly blending
right from the start.
Oh, I'm afraid that it's ending,
and my world is falling apart.

It's over,
and I feel so alone,
This is a sadness I've never known.
How did I let the sweetest of dreams slip away?
And I'm afraid the hurt is here to stay.

Promises made,
not meant to be broken
from a long time ago.
Oh, so many words still unspoken,
tell me how I was to know.

It's over, (it's over,)
never thought it would be.
Why in the world did this happen to me?
How could I let the sweetest of dreams slip away?
And I'm afraid the hurt is here to stay.

I go round and round and round in my head,
Wanting to take back whatever I said, (whatever I said.)
No one was right, (no one was right,)
We all made mistakes, (we all made mistakes,)
I'm ready to do whatever it takes.
Please, don't let it be
Over, no, this is not how it ends,
I need my sisters, my family, my friends.
Don't wanna let the sweetest of dreams slip away, (the dreams slip away.)
'Cause if it's over,
then the hurt is here to say. (Don't let it be over.)
Please don't let it be over. Please don't let it be over.

Hannah Montana - True Friend

;We sign our cards and letters BFF
You've got a million ways to make me laugh
You're lookin' out for me; you've got my back
It's so good to have you around

You know the secrets I could never tell
And when I'm quiet you break through my shell
Don't feel the need to do a rebel yell
Cause you keep my feet on the ground

[CHORUS 1]
You're a true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend

[VERSE 2]
You don't get angry when I change the plans
Somehow you're never out of second chances
Won't say "I told you" when I'm wrong again
I'm so lucky that I've found

[CHORUS 2]
A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again

[BRIDGE]
True friends will go to the ends of the earth
Till they find the thing you need
Friends hang on through the ups and the downs
Cause they've got someone to believe in

[CHORUS 3]
A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
No need to pretend
You're a true friend
You're here till the end
Pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night'
Til it's alright again
You're a true friend [3x]

HARI RAYE.

2008-10-01T19:42:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!
:D

it's my day.

2008-10-01T01:07:00.001+08:00

HEYYYY! (like there's no other start)
it's my BIRTHDAY, today.
so wish me.
for those of you who didn't, i shan't forgive you.
haha.

i rushed to JB & breakfast-ed at Singgah Selalu.

haha.

by the way, i finally wear my shirt-dress.

my sister used my clothes sey!

hmpf.

never mind.

everyone said i look better!

haha.

by the way, someone called me hari raya eve girl!

cool huh?

ha. :DD

they're MY friends.

2008-09-30T01:09:00.000+08:00

thanks for the wish on your blog, even before my b'day.
appreciate it a lot.
you've always been there for me, whenever i needed you.

everyday;

2008-09-18T22:22:00.000+08:00

like evryday in my life, it's boring.
nothing much happened today, as per usual.
the sleeping, look the teacher, sleep, do work, sleep, look at teacher, yadayada.

so, during HMT class, Cikgu Teoh tested on our speech, gave us time to think about the questions, then called us in a small group.

after i said what i had to say, she was saying like "bagus eh Amirah. perfect sekali. dengar linda, lisa? macam inilah kener cakap. PERFECT. sayang eh, kelas tak dapat dengar."

paiseyh dok.

then Khai said, "nothing's perfect".
but Cikgu Teoh like keep on repeating it.

after the class almost ended, she said, "sampai sekarang, yang terbaik sekali, Amirah. perfect sekali. kalau awak tak dengar, rugi. besok Amirah akan memberikan speech dia lagi depan kelas".

obviously, i don't want.
it's not that i have anything against it, but it's like, i have stage fright.
having all eyes on you, especially, when the teacher have praised you.
my voice tends to go softer when there's a lot of people around me.
i don't know why.
such a freakkk.

had HOMEC prac. test today too.
cook a few stuff.
guess it went quite well.
Mrs Chiang love our fried rice, especially MY black pepper french fries.
she used the word "addictive".
yes, "ADDICTIVE". :DD
honestly, i was killing myself trying not to eat.
it does not help when everyone else can't stop eating.
how nice is it sey?
half of the rice was finished up by fellow classmates.
Mrs Chiang came back to say our fried rice is "very good, very nice".
i quote it!

had band Games' Day.
after playing "It's Raining Men".
yes, that song. obviously, since we killed it, none of you would be able to figure it out.
we should just stop murdering songs.
i think, i've done first-degree murder. ((:
the notes were consistently high, at a fast speed, and there weren't much time to take in breaths.
i barely ate for my 'sahur'.
penat.

then we had our games!
it was fun.
we were divided into three sections. was in Khalid's group as well.
we played "Followed the Leader + Monkey" game.
we have to choose a leader, and there's a monkey in the middle.
we follow the actions of the leader without the monkey knowing, & he can only guess who when he catches the ball, which we'll have to pass throughout the game.
after around 45 minutes, the Muslims were allowed to go home.
like FINALLY, Khalid wanted to go home early.
even the ABL commented, "You all FINALLY go home".

'cause, always the two of us didn't want to go home early, like the rest of the Malays in band.
anyway, certain sec 1s use break-fast as an excuse to go home.
even when we head back to Band Room, 30 minutes aftr they're allowed to go home, i still see some sec 1s who were dismissed earlier, hanging around.
-shakes head-

so, reached home.
battle against time to pray Asar.
sleep.
then,

HELLOOOOOOO FOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDD! :DDDDDD

now, i'm going to drink my sweet talk.
bye.
don't miss me.
(i know you will)

CIP cum NADA + Ridz outing day. :D

2008-09-01T13:38:00.000+08:00

hey, y'allllllllll!

what's down?!

'kay, lame start. as per usual.

today, it was selling-the-thousands-of-merry-christmas-and-happy-new-year-cards day.

after many, i repeat, MANY, unsusccessful tries & disappointing failures of selling the cards at random people, we finally decided to use a door-to-door sale.

so, we've pick, a really random block, a very the random block, an absolutely random block, after wondering aimlessly while carrying the amazingly light cards.

coincidentally, it was block 101.

we knock, each and every door.

well, not really.

sometimes, when we're just too tired, we would just walk past a few doors. haha.

Syafiqah had a GREAT tactic.

she'll just shout "excuse me" past the whole corridor without waiting for them to open, and ask us to "attend to it".

there were actually a lot of makcik-s that bought the cards though there were no selamat hari raya cards, just for the sake of donating.

but there was one time, when the auntie opened the door, wide enough, & when she see us, she just slammed the door.

wow, we seemed like we were in a comedy or smth.

imagine getting the door slammed in your face even before you start saying anything.

there was even one door which says "no salesman! go away!"

wow, it help us.

a lot.

soon, our shift ended.

Dhiyyah went home, as we met Ridz.

"go, go! power rangers, transform!". haha. me & Syaf just changed our clothes and walked to the Chevrons.

yes, walk. the long walk. the long, tiring walk with makes us tired with our alrdy tired legs.

kind of my fault, i suppose.

haha.

we argued who was the one to pay to the cashier, and in th end, we pay tgthr.

i lost $5 while waiting for the lanes.

what a great day.

so, i finally got the call & we went up again and start on the game.

after an incredibly short call, with Dhiyyah, she FINALLY reached, abruptly.

she literally just appeared beside Syafiqah and tell us she saw someone.

i don't wish to elaborate anymore.

i didn't know what came over me.

okay, never mind.

so, Ridz, unfortunately score, & he did this dance.

i have no idea what it is.

nampak sah nak attract attention Masturina. haha.

we went back to Jurong Ent. Cntr, without Ridz.

we ate & camwhored.

it was the day NADA officially formed. & the day before puase. (:

(how could i not see this was coming?)

gasps impromptu speech.

2008-08-25T20:10:00.000+08:00

gosh.
today was my impromptu speech.
gah, i don't know if i did well.
i didn't exactly stumble, but i think i had a little bit of stage fright.
so, the first register number called was 9, & she talked about her topic, which was, uhhh, wait.
wait.
wait.
i rmbr it.
i seriously know this.
oh, wait.
then again, maybe i've forgotten. XD
i did some "calculations", & i found out, i was the next to go.
it's not like Mrs Wong has a pattern, in her numbers, just somehow, i knew.
my partner even said "it's going to be your turn."
all i can say was "i know."
& yes, she did say "16."
off i go.
standing in front.
with 38 pairs of eyes looking at me.
plus Mrs Wong's.
stage fright-ed.
i got my topic; "a recent public performance you were involved".
its suppose to be easy, i guess.
& i stood there, for 2 minutes, thinking about it, with an innocent look, while evryone else, is just waiting, waiting for me to start.
i started off quite okay.
describing about my SYF involvement, in band. :D
how it all started.
from hating the hectic schedule, to actually loving band for what it is because it was worth it.
stating that there were moments when we cried.
then suddenly, it all came back to me.
somehow, i forgotten that i was presenting it.
that's when i think, my voice went softer and softer.
i even mentioned my sectional leader who sobbed..
i don't know how & why, suddenly, weird feelings overcame me.
i was sad-ded. (not a word)
the last few words, i realised my voice kind of cracked.
but, it was only for me to know.
rather certain nobody noticed it.
what can i say?
thinking about SYF, it brought back how it felt like when it was a "silver".
whatever we've gone through.
how hard our band leaders tried.
Vivien actually cried, when she was strong all along.
band just meant a lot to me.
it really is, to me.
:D

CIP day.

2008-08-19T19:07:00.000+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOO!

so, today, we had our CIP at Red Cross Home for the Disabled.
me & shira wore our CAP shirt. haha.
somebody in the bus said, "semangat sey pakai baju tu."
haha. still, i don't want to be in the same bus as ....
to make things worse, we were like in front of .....
i didn't want to move back but Dhiyyah asked me too.
glad that Syafiqah's hand was beside me. ;DD
inevitably, there were some quiet moments in the bus ride when i suddenly thought of certain events at CAP.
sweet memories, and some not so sweet memories as well.
and wow, we had such a difficult time finding that home.
who knows it was so secluded?
it almost look scary.
some part of the building practically went into the forest.
me, shira & dhiyyah sang "Love is Blind" since we left the bus. ((:
when we try to open the gates, i felt like we were in a haunted movie or smth.
something-something-something happened.
we went to our first "target".
his name was Christopher and he was 52.
he was 1 out of a few of those who can respond in that home.
though he had blurred speech.
so we played 'guess who?".
everyone played.
but there was a time, when it was Syafiqah's turn, when Christopher tried to say something but we couldn't figure out what it is.
then i saw that Syafiqah's card was facing him.
when Wee Kiat tries to turn the card, Christopher suddenly burst out laughing.
and when i say, burst out laughing, i really mean it.
he had a piercing scream.
Syafiqah was so shocked, she practically jumped.
like Syafiqah, we were so "lemah-semangat-ed" that i wanted to cry.
she said it too.
seriously ahh.
it was like "mengilai-ing".
like a ____.
anyway, besides that, we find another target.
it was KUMAR.
he was the only one who was able to move around, with the help of his electric wheel-chair.
when we saw him, we wanted to talked to him, that he went the other way.
Syafiqah, look stupid enough, and run behind him.
haha, lol.
then we decided to confront him, then suddenly we saw him past through the rooms. we were at the corridor.
wow, clever.
finally, we "caught" him and we talked to him.
his speech was totally fine.
in fact, he's schooling at an International School.
talked to him for like an hour ++.
when we wanted to go home, we said goodbye to Christopher.
and then, he said "when are you coming back?"
though blur, we could still figure that out.
Shira said "maybe, we're coming back."
but he kept asking the same question.
i was, like, going to cry, so i went out of the room and Shira & Silas handled the rest.
then, we bus-ed home. (:

it's never too late to apologise. ((:

2008-08-13T19:30:00.000+08:00

Most of you probably knows that today my class did a huge apology to Mrs Wong.
if you went past 01 classroom, that is.
even at the staircase, you can see them.
those little tiny notes of "sorry".
If you are wondering why, its because my class lied to her.
& YES, the WHOLE class. let me repeat again. the WHOLE 39-students class.
Hard to believe, RIGHT?
Guess this is what they say ‘we’re all in this together’.
but this time, it ain't something nice.

This is a list of what happened:
>The back of the class had ‘Mrs Wong please forgive us. We promise we will never do it again’
they were in BOLD BOLD letters.
big enough for anybody who's not blind to see.

>The whiteboard had our apology written on it. ALL OVER THE PLACE.
in different languages even.
there was French, Japanese.
Khai even wrote them in Chinese.
not just in chinese, but the characters.
wow, right?

>At the staircase had a few notes of apology for her.
courtesy of me, Syaf & Dhiyyah.

I saw Mrs Wong smile.
But it was no time to feel relieved.
Me & Syiqa had to take out all the little notes on the staircase.
so, when Syaf saw that Mrs Wong was downstairs, she grabbed me and we went to the toilet on the 2nd floor.
two 206 guys, offered us help.
one of them asked "do you want us to help?"
Syaf agreed.
"when i showed this(the thumbs up sign), that means, she past already."
so we waited.
then the two guys moved up front and began talking to Mrs Wong, and one of the guys moved back, and gave us the signal that she went up.
like people infected with mad-cow disease (though i don't know what it meant), we went from the first floor and tore out every single "sorry" notes.
thanks, to the 206 guys.
Mrs Wong went in and said "how could i not forgive my own class?", with a smile.
we cheered.
never did i felt, how great, my class actually is, when we put aside our differences. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! ;DD

2008-08-09T20:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPOREEEEEEEEEEEE!

:DD

NDP celebrations.

2008-08-08T18:55:00.001+08:00

201 freaking won!
haha, lol.
so, it's NDP celebrations, & it started off with the parade.
band was involved also, & i swear i was that close to fainting.
haha.
after singing melodiously (-_-) to a few songs, we were finally dismissed to prepare for the cheer comp.
rushed back to class where everyone was so busy doing... something. haha.
i got a red sock from Felicia, then Zhi Qing did my hair.
me & Shira were among the last to finish preparing everything, while our class alrdy went downstairs.
wah, we were super duper enthu la!
we were singing & dancing. haha.
205 was up first, & i can't help but think that their shirt "strip" was so similar to my class's cheer comp "auditions" to get to the final.
but anyway, we were so nervous.
forget nervous, we were bloody hell nervous. haha.
soon, it was our turn, & we took our positions.
i was alrdy shaking in the first place, cause there's only 2 lines on stage for the starting, while the rest slowly enter, & me and Shira, were the first for our respective rows.
so far, everything went well.
seeing the rest of the class, made me forget my moves. haha.
i almost went down when the class went down, until i saw Shira, & rmbred we had to do something else.
the 2 lines ( 4 people per line )were called "pariahs".
haha.
imagine if i actually went down, it will be super obvious. haha.
then it comes to the bottle beat.
it was kind of rushing, but i had fun.
it reminded me of the Creative Arts Programme.
"once a CAPper, always a CAPper."
i especially love the part where we sang "gimme gimme more, gimme more, gimme gimme more". haha.
then Khai & Asyraf did their solo dance. haha.
when we did our BP cheer, again, i almost forgot i had to go down.
i turned around & look at Dhiyyah, then she nod her head.
so my line went down, so did Shira's line, and we joined in front of the stage.
"we gonna win, win, win x 3, we gonna ooo-ooo-ooo, BOOM!"
Kelly released the "bomb" as the whole class turned around.
we waited till everyone applauded.
haha.
then we turned around, facing them, & did our surprise cheer.
".........
We laugh, we cry ( we did an expressive motion that we lowered our body, of crying, haha), we all say "Hi!",
Cause when we cheer is bye, bye, bye.."
our class did the moves, as we turned back again.
then my line & Shira line, that became one line (-_-), turned halfway, with our lower body still facing the back (so detailed, lol), & cheered the last words,
"bye, bye!"
me & Shira act so bitchy luh.
with our hand actions for "bye, bye". haha.

after a few songs, and cheer items, it was finally the results.
"third... 101, second... 202, & the winner for the lower sec catergory is.. 201!"
omg la.
we were super happy man.
haha.
we so proud that we cheered,
"potions, motions hear us roar,
no one's knocking at your door,
with no power,
with no zest,
all of you can kiss our ass."
haha, we all even slap our butts la.
LOL.
we did that cheer for the show too, but the 3 last lines were different;
"with more power,
with more zest,
we will strive for the best".

for one particular song, we rushed for the stage, but 206 beat us to it.
Syaf vs Hafiz, Ridz & Harsha.
LOL.
like seriously want to fight, like that.
haha.

we will so rmbr this day.
especially for me, Syaf, Dhiyyah & Shira.
writing the cheers wasn't easy, seriously.
teaching the class was not easy either, especially since the guys did not even want to listen.
the bottle beat, was quite hard to learn, but we're very happy that you guys got it.
& even though, we were not really credited for this, we're still very proud of the class.
rmbred that Shira & me wanted the bottle beat, i added the "gimme more", Khai wanted the dance, i wanted the "bye bye" cheer with Shira creating the final moves of it which was so cool, & we especially loved the starting.

"hear the heartbeat, feel the drumbeat, be the nations's beat" as the class moved on stage while doing the moves.
can't forget it la.
:D

THURSDAY;

2008-08-02T14:24:00.003+08:00

HEY!

so, today, my clique & Linda had to video the school singing the National Anthem during assembly.
i asked Mr Tan for the permission first. yep, him. the one EVERYONE feared. he agreed to it!
we set up at two places, the Science Lab & in the hall.
i was video-ing in the hall.
surprisingly, it all sounded soft.
obviously, i focused at my class a lot, haha.
when we looked at the recording again, we could only hear the music, not the singing.
oh, well.
i took the recording of their pledge as well.
we went back the other way, because we didn't want anyone to see us..
well, i think, that's the only thing that happened today.
BYE!

EGG RELAY RACE.

2008-08-02T14:23:00.001+08:00

today was the egg relay race.
had to wake up early because i was involved in the performance.
band is so into school spirit! :D
we bus-ed there, & had to stand into two lines.
the camera started filming and we had to redo just walking into the stadium like 3 times.
haha.
we ate first, near the court.
while eating, Ms Zizi, stopped by our section, and said "there's only one rose among the thorns".
we all stared at her, because we didn't understand her.
haha.
well, i was the only girl, in my section then.
there were another 14 guys. 14 vs 1. haha.
Cindy came late, & Alvina (hate you) couldn't come.
so, after that we set up our positions first, then prepared for the race, behind the stadium.
it was such a last minute practice.
& it was my FIRST practice. 'cause i'm so good. ((:
i was the first 50, which consists of band members.
i was like shivering ah.
it was finally my turn, & i walked, at an okay speed.
seriously, nobody had drop any eggs so, i don't want to be the first. EVERYONE in my school that was present would have their eyes looking at me, & if i dropped the egg, it would be so.. umm.. paiseyh? yep, that's the word.
i was just walking happily, when i heard somebody shouted a name.
"*****!" (wonder who that is, that shouted that)
if you know good, but don't know too bad.
i was seriously shocked, & i stumbled a bit.
but i didn't lose focus, & yea, made it, WITHOUT dropping the egg.
yay me!
after a while, we started playing our songs.
most of them were from SYF but some were new songs.
like quite new.
but we played, anyway.
we LOST, but hey, we still got the prize for the most creative.
i saw the guys in my school
-wearing mascot; sumo, fish, etc.
-solving Rubik's cube while looking at the egg.
-twirling a file.
so, quite cool bah.
it was quite enjoyable, & had to bus-ed our way back school.
(:

NDP Rehearsal.

2008-07-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

songs are not nice. song i like suited for NCC.

Speech day, y'all!

2008-07-19T11:15:00.001+08:00

i got a message from Alvina saying that we're suppose to be performing for Speech Day.
okay then. though they weren't really any practice.
so, on that day, i had to bring full-u and quickly change after sch.
our performance was actually the first part of the whole ceremony.
so, we kind of slacked outside the band room.
but hey, there was McD burgers. (one of the reasons i love band. haha.)
Syaf wanted me to go with her, together with some NCC guys, but in the end, i left her.
it wasn't my intention. (:
then we went back to the hall, & stand in rehatkan diri position.
being very disciplined, even when we're in rehatkan diri, our movements must be minimised.
so, i barely moved.
the ceremony was over.
i ran down the stairs, changed to my school-u, met Syaf where she forced me to it, after cikgu Marlina forced me to it.
i just look when Syaf actually begged Hafiz to go home with her. haha.
after a while, we did went home, after helping Shira, report to Mr Lim about her missing handphone, in which, in the end, we tried finding Mr Tan and end up talking to Mr Lee. yes, our principal.
it was a tiring day. & now, it's dark.

chattering of teeth

2008-07-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

so, today, Shira was telling us all about her dream. her weird dream. let me just say again. it's a very WEIRD dream. & when i say it's weird, it's WEIRD. super-duper WEIRD. ultra-super WEIRD. :D
the story revolves around a lighthouse in which a few stupid specific dumbies who were walking up, all the way to the top.
let me just say the names. they were; Syaf, Dhiyyah, Me, Shira, Khai, Ridz, Miq, Hafiz, Diko & Azlinda.
i wonder how they all got in her dream, but i shall move on.
let me warn you; it's meant to be a scary dream.
still at the beginning of the walk, the guys were so afraid, then they, one by one, went behind Shira, until it was all the girls in front, & guys at the back.
Linda said "penakot sey lelaki. tak gune betol."
as though it was like every day in school life, Diko argued back.
so, we all left Diko & Lin downstairs screaming at each other, while we moved up.
so, we were just going up, when suddenly Dhiyyah saw a light on top. she was like saying "aper tu sey? korang nampak tak?"
Hafiz started screaming very much like a girl. Khai hands were on his mouth. you know, the 'scared' look. like as if you were biting your fingernails. Hafiz said like "oi, dah la. tak payah pergi. aku dah takot ni."
but we persisted on. something-something happened along the way. then Hafiz saw it again. he girl screamed again followed by me. (i'm really not trying to make a connection)
if you can imagine, the staircase is a winding staircase so we had to walk in a line.
Syaf was the first, followed by Shira, me, Dhiyyah, Khai, Ridz, Miq then Hafiz. if you can't rmbr, Diko & Linda are still downstairs; fighting. :D
something embarrased and jaw-dropping incident happened between Dhiyyah and a special-ed someone. i shan't say it.
she'll skin me alive. minced my meat. blend it. put it in a plastic bag and buried underground. and i, or should i say, parts of me, wouldn't be seen again.
kay, exaggerating. thanks to Syaf.
so we went into this room. everything was white. when we went in, we saw "Syaf". it wasn't Syaf because Syaf was right in front of us. that "Syaf" was in the room. the other end. she was saying that we shouldn't continue, & soon, we wouldn't have sufficient air. i began to sang "No Air". (-.-lll)
then suddenly she looked at us. and supposedly, she had red eyes and was crying out blood and her whole face started changing to that of a ______. (insert something scary)
we ran out of that room and rushed for the other room that was there. there, we saw Dhiyyah. then something embarrassing happened to me, which was so disgusting. should be rated NC16. not suitable for underaged children.
when we saw Dhiyyah, we just walked up to her, she said we should go.
suddenly, the supposedly real Dhiyyah came. we all looked at each other and we all darted down the stairs. Shira was still with Dhiyyah, the first Dhiyyah. or the second. i'm not sure. but for sure, it was only one Dhiyyah.
Shira, who was all by herself, rooted to the ground, came to her senses and rushed down. the rest of us were waiting for her. we dragged Diko and Linda out who was obviously still fighting.
we ran like god-knows-what is chasing us. everyone except Shira.
she asked "maner Dhiyyah?"
so the scene is focused on her. then suddenly, Dhiyyah was behind her and said "lari la!"
they ran together. but suddenly Dhiyyah just disappeared.
the mystery was, who was the Dhiyyah that last talked to Shira? was the real Dhiyyah actually was left at the top? or was the real Dhiyyah was abducted just like that moments after talking to Shira?
too bad, there's no continuation. it was time for Shira to go to sch.
interesting right? (rhetorical question)
i know it is. :D

the song for me?

2008-07-17T20:14:00.000+08:00

Love Is Blind (2008) - Ramzi feat. Ash King

"I see you all the time,
Never see you smile,
I try to picture what’s going on in your mind,
He leaves you every night by yourself,
He took your love,
& put it on the shelf,
He doesn’t really care…
How you feel...
You should be moving on girl what’s the deal?
I wana see you out that door...

Cause girl you know your worth much more,
So baby tell me why…
You stick around,
Always lonely and you only wear a frown,
He don’t treat you good
& you know,
The only thing left is for you to go,
You shouldn’t live a lie with someone,
When deep inside you know he ain’t the one,
I don’t know what to say no more,
I wana see you out that door..

Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahiri,
I really don’t wanna see u cry,
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don’t take it to heart),
Don’t wana see another tear in your eye,
Baby break away,
Let him go,
I don’t know he’s done to you,
But I know that its time to move on,
Girl your love blind.

Girl I understand,
That you’re scared,
& you feel that you might never love again,
But baby that ain’t true,
No no no,
I know that there some there for you,
Someone that will see,
That you are worth,
An undiscovered treasure on this earth,
Girl you know your worth so much more,
Wanna see you out that door..

*chorus

Girl, your love is blind."

'kay, so according to Shira, this song suited me.
uhh, no comments.
she can't stop singing it to me.
so, people, who knows what my "love" life WAS like, please comment, y'all!

PEACE OUT. :D

MASS DANCE DAY! :DD

2008-07-13T17:10:00.000+08:00

nice picture, right? haha. me & my heart partner. :D
i LOVE today la. it was damn fun uhh! :DD

Sunday;

i met Azlinda at Clementi MRT. you want to know why? even if you don't want to know, i'd still tell you anyways. :D we're going to Shahirah's jemputan. not that she's getting married, but her cousin is. supposedly, she told a lot about us to her relatives or so.

so, YES, before mass dance, we actually had time to go to a wedding ceremony. like as if it was so uncommon, Shahirah was late, AGAIN. we got to know that she hasn't even get out of that place to come and fetch us. ugh. we roamed around and found a playground.

since, we ARE young, we played. see what will i resort during boredom? to play at a playground and bump into those more little kids. haha, just kidding about the bumping.
took some pictures too! some of them are here;

after some time, Shahirah said she can't fetch us, cause her parents were nowhere to be seen. so we had to go to some foreign place, for a wedding, of someone we don't know, ALONE; only the two of us. (:

as we didn't know where the interchange was, we went to a bus stop. waiting for the bus to come, Azlinda went to look for some magazines which was barely 2m away. we walked & walked, and realised we missed the bus stop. not the bus, but the bus stop. it's a wonder how we can missed such a big place, when we JUST walking. so we walked back 10 steps. our bus came, and we boarded it. but anyway, it was just 1 stop away and i can't believe it was that close. so at the bus stand, waiting for the right bus to come, an auntie asked if we know how to get to BLK 714 and we said we didn't know. i called Shahirah, and got to know that the block we're heading to IS blk 714. ((: so embarrassed to face her. haha.

so we counted the bus stops, and manage to stop at the right place, despite Shahirah's wrong counting. saw 3 small people, which were Shahirah and her two cousins, Nana & Yaya, so we followed them..

the food was AWESOME. LOVE it!

then we went to a playground, a different one this time, and played AGAIN. never could i feel more childish that day.

one unexpected thing took place there! you guys don't know what right? want to know?

of course you want la, so this was what happened. we KARAOKE-d. :DD like, wth? the song is: My Heart! ((: haha. me & Azlinda sang the girl part while Shahirah and her cousin, Nana sang the guy part. since Shahirah was so popular, her makcik-s and pakcik-s were all right up in front. wow, damn stress. so many fans! haha, lol. perasan. we have this saying "kalau perasan sikit-sikit, takpe la." :D

when it was our turn, the announcer was saying "Adik Amirah, Adik Azlinda, Adik Shira dan Adik Nana akan menyanyikan lagu My Heart seterusnya." and he repeated it like 3 times. paiseyh-ed. i felt little. he even mentioned, "mereka akan ke sekolah lepas ini, jadi mereka akan bernyanyi dulu." find it redundant to tell.

pictures there;

so we sang, then finally went to school. okay, then we went to school. we were quite late, i think. the mass dance started at like 3? 700 people. wow! :DD
from the starting since we entered school, Azlinda has been spraying water at me. so almost the whole day, i was water-sprayed. my hair was dripping wet. while sitting down at the basketball court, didn't know what overcome Azlinda and Shahirah, they suddenly became lesbians. like, eww. haha, lol. but really, they actually touch my hand in that kind of way, okay, no more elaboration, i feel disgusted right now. haha. it was obviously meant to be a joke. but i felt really "eww-ed" because guys were obviously present. ha.

so we started the dance, around 3, and it was real fun! at certain times, me & Azlinda made the sounds, cause we're "enthu" people. we smiled, laughed all the way. "circle, circle, whoo!", "circle, circle, whoo!", "sway..", "sway...", "turn to the side." :D

but indian dance is the best part. we would always teased Dhiyyah about it. haha. mainly because she "love" indian dance, especially at C.A.P. lol, haha. teased about he-who-must-not-be-named too! (:
finally finished the dance, after like one hour. did some filming. in the HOT, HOT ,SUN.

then we had to throw our caps, and the first take, it was okay. landed nicely. but the second take, my cap was accidentally thrown out of target, and it almost hit this person la. since, he was looking the other way, i quietly took the cap that was on the grass, praying that he wouldn't turn. & i don't think he knew. :D

gosh, i love today. :DD (& it's not because of my mass dance position, 'kay?)

picture;
cute right? :DD

another day.

2008-07-11T22:36:00.000+08:00

today, i'm not exactly late, but can be considered quite late, depending on how one would think the definition of late is. (: i choose to think i'm not late.
so, coincidentally, i met up with Shira, but only in sch. waited for her to clock-in, talked about the art book, yadayadayada.
i thought everyone went already, then i was praying i would never meet (he-or-she-who-must-not-be-named). in the end, maybe i was such a "bad" girl, that my prayers wasn't accepted. met the whole gang in the last flight of stairs. when i saw them, Shira started clearing her throat, and whatnot. all the obvious things you could think of. moving to the side, she pushed me inwards such that i almost fell. idiot. haha, just kidding, should you read my blog. :D
nothing much went on.
first period was Physics, wasn't that bad. followed by History, which i LOVE so much. this time, i'm not being my sarcastic self. let me tell you; i LLOOOOOOVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEE History.
the teacher was quite fun, cause she always have some stories, hilarious ones, she'd shared.
this time was something about why woman should marry man.
ha, i agree. no offence. the next period after recess was HMT, so we went to class and so that Cikgu Teoh brought her laptop, which meant that she was going to show us pics from C.A.P [creative arts programme], after much irritation from Shira.
don't know why, but i have mixed feelings about wanting to watch them. it's i love it, but somehow, i hate it. but the lighting in the class was quite bad, that the pictures can't be seen.
i saw nothing but she said it was Hafiz & Haziq. she then changed to the girls' performance of Indian Dance. so there was this part, where only the Malays would come in front. then the guys, being guys AGAIN, was so impatient, they were like saying "tak nampak diorang ahh."
if you don't understand what it means, they were implying that we're dark. =.=lll but we watched only a few seconds then proceed on to arranging file and planned to watch it on another day. i gave Cikgu Teoh my share of pics of CAP in which she upload to her comp.
after that Maths, just another typical lesson. then i realised i didn't bring my HOMEC book, so i HAD to run back home, and come back, just in time NOT to be late for the dance. it was rather fun. me & Syaf were busy imitating a few someones. as always, we teased Dhiyyah about the indian dance which we say she love. should see her expression.
after that, we went to the library, by foot, all the way from sch, to get some exercise. :D we're healthy students. we were sharing experiences in our lives, in which i interrogate Syaf a lot. until Khalid came. ugh, after shoo-ing him away, he still won't, so me & Syaf used nicknames. we gave the guys, girl names, and Khalid actually thought they were girls. gosh. Syaf started teasing him casually saying like Khalid's not straight and all, liking a guy. and i joined in.
after much GIRL talking, we went home.

yea, that's about it.

i'm bored.

2008-07-10T16:50:00.001+08:00

just waiting for the time to go by.
i'm at the "best" tessellation workshop.
with the "alive" tessellation teacher.
waiting for the "fast" time to go by.

ugh.

2008-07-08T19:01:00.001+08:00

p.s i haven't finish the post during creative arts programme. :D

SCHOOL REOPENS; update.

2008-07-07T18:04:00.000+08:00

right, so it's been quite a long time since i blogged.
because i'm purely LAZY. i can recall incidents but i can't remember the dates though.
so on THIS day, i was said to have a special bonding or smth with Foz. uhm, so guys, yea, there were ALL COINCIDENTAL.
so, i had these feeling that somebody was going to come to the canteen, and i merely said it to my clique.
Syaf began looking around [wonder who was she finding], & then she started laughing. Shira turned around too, and she laughed too.
as it was a daily routine, i was left with a blank face, what has happened over my already crazy friends.
kener rasuk kot. :D
i asked if it was **** then they said it was Zorro.
i was like damn shocked and i was literally staring at them. i didn't bother to look though.
so that's what the call "bonding".
probably, that word is too strong.
i prefer "coincidence".
on another occassion, during recess, i was cornered by my clique plus Amalina. childish as we may sound, we play this game called "snap twist". as we all grew so CLOSE together, in the years we were in school, two or more of us will say the same thing, at the same time. you just snap your fingers and you hit that person. don't try this game, is very tiring.
especially, with Syaf. jangan marah.
so i thought me & Syaf said the same thing, so we paused and looked at each other.
then we realised, we wasn't so we both said "tak, tak." and that was when we snap twist.
i hit her, but i forgot there was a new rule.
since we're very good girls, and how we respected food, no snap-twisting allowed while there's food on the table. so Syaf would get to hit me once and i can't avoid it. i think there was a time, when Dhiyyah and Shira have to snap twist.
then me & Syaf both asked them to Snap Twist.
so, yea, we had another try, since there's still food on the table. after what seems like a looooonnnnnnngggggg recess, these was the amount of snap twists that i owe.
Syaf = 4, Shira = 2, Dhiyyah = 1, Divya =1.
so they already made an alliance to hit me. i was the last to put my plate back. so i started running, and they were all eye-ing on me.
i was wondering why the bell hasn't rang. so i was like all alone on the hockey pitch, and i had these fierce looking minahs(exluding Dhiyyah), who were like walking towards me in a line. since i was already the smaller in size, except with Shira (rejoicing), i was like running like a little small girl. they were getting nearer and nearer, and i can't run anymore.
i was CORNERED.
then they all started hitting me. nobody saw, i think. (this is a lie. everyone saw.) finally, i survived.
LITTLE MISS STRONG. haha.
Hmpf. :P

there was this day, should be the same day as the "bonding" day, when we had to do some running from Mr *****.
cause we haven't finish hw.
we wanted to go to upper sec canteen, but our bags were in lower sec, and Mr ***** was there. and he was facing our bags.
so we sneaked up, and took our bags, one by one, casting occasional glance on him. (praying like hell, he won't notice us.) we tiptoed, not making any sounds, and we run in a straight file, taking turns to look. we must have look like criminals. [not me. i'm INNOCENT. (: ]

oh wait, i realised all these happen on the same day. :D

so we had a bazaar, last Friday. i still rmbr the preparations i had to make with Shira on the days before, Sunday. it was a last minute plan.
we decided to go to my grandmother's house to make the curry puffs, in HOUGANG.
after much chitty-chatty, i went to Boon Lay, and met Shira there. from far, i could see a small little girl wearing scarf, struggling to carrying a bag which looks like it contained bomb. and she was with her younger brother.
he gave me the other bag, and we were on our way to interchange.
we were wondering why it took so long to cross the road, then i stupidly realised that we didn't press that thing that we're suppose to press. so all the cars on the road, were like looking at us. we were those small little girls, carrying bags of bombs. [i don't mean it literally.]
i mean the ingredients. we talked a lot on the way, and i mean it. A LOT.
i had to settle the love problem Shira had, AGAIN. and i got involve with the whole thing. like wth. it was DIFFICULT to handle that possessive guy.
i didn't want to but in the end i told every single detail about my own 'love' story, which never unfold with *****. can't believe i cried while smsing him all those stuffs.
i obviously didn't tell him the identity or even my own name. i managed to make him let Shira go, but he created other problems soonafter. at last, i think he understand me, and he "let her go". gosh, i'm good. (self praising is an international disgrace. :D )
enough bout that, after sending the ingredients, went back cck, eat at McD, i reached home at around 9.30. so we took back the currypuffs on Thursday, and the next morning, Syafiqah came my house to help me cook. i started cooking at 6am.
thought it was quite okay. and as expected, obviously Shira came damn early!
she was 1hr 30mins LATE! [i'm so proud of you. at least it didn't break your previous record].
in the end, we were all late to school, and we still haven't finish cooking the currypuffs. my mom had to send them later. i thought i could rest, then, i get to know, my class didn't buy the carrier bags. i had to run and call my mother to bring them. then i was stressed, cause my class make it seem like i was the one at fault, until i shouted a bit, but at Shira. lol, sorry. it wasn't meant for you. after everything, went to watch BPian Idol, then my mom called, when it just started. i ran to the gate with Syaf.
and saw my mom, with another mom who said that her daughter/son was involved in the making of brownie in 206.
wonder who that is.
but anyway, ran back to the canteen, gave them, managing to say some things in between the gasp, then went back hall to watch. cheered & cheered.
found myself singing to some songs.
at this song, which i won't mention, i was building castles in the air.
i didn't notice, until Shira nudged me cause she notice that the song suited my life and that point of time.
"when you say nothing at all."
shoo, you irritating memories!
after the performances, i walked around, put henna on my hand, then spent on a few items to finish off the coupons.. etc..

that's it.

then we went to eat at Teck Whye, then went back for mass dance.
it was quite fun. but i hate the malay guys, minus Asyraf, from our class.
when are they ever going to understand that we're not b*tches?
we never were.
you guys never understood us in the first place.
i mean what give you the right to label us that way?
have you ever tried to know us further?
did we ever do anything wrong?
we NEVER talked about you guys in a negative way, but you always did.
is it difficult to just be friends?
we tried to, but you guys just don't bother.
those who you say aren't b*tches, they were.
when we, never did anything, you say we are.
wth is that?
you guys find it a joy to find the badness in someone, like you're so perfect. it goes to you, D***.

it's nice, ain't it?
to call us names when you don't know the exact reason why you do that?
you think we like being called those things?
we're not who you think we are, cause you never want to know further.
we tried so hard, to make things okay, but you guys, being guys, with such HUGE, ULTRA-BIG EGO, won't ever understand right?
all right, other than that, my clique & i walked home, talking about different topics, and laughing like mad women. (minus me.) :D

typical day.

2008-06-24T20:15:00.000+08:00

when i passed you,
i acted like i didn't care,
like you didn't exist,
little did you know,
when i walked away,
i don't know why,
i can't explain why,
my heart was heavy,
i didn't want to,
but my eyes went watery;
memories of the past keep coming back.

so i have little things to say today.
i haven't blogged in a while, 'cause of my pure laziness. (:
though, i'm busy editing my long time overdue post on the Creative Arts Programme. (CAP)
i've to rotate some pictures here & there; recall certain events.

ystrdy, nothing happened though we had our literature presentation. we just prepared our slides and script the day before. i slept at 2.30am. i've turned nocturnal, since CAP. ;D
though all of us said we have to come early, none of us really did. which was so expected. (:
we were the fourth group to present.
when i was busy trying to memorise the script, trust Syafiqah and Dhiyyah to make fun of me & D***.
yea, 'cause i sit right in front, and the laptop was put on my table, so the malay guys had to go to my table, i guess. when i look at Syaf, she was laughing like crazily (those of you who know her, will know how she'll laugh while shaking her head), and keep on raising her eyebrows, with "that" look. the cunning look. the look that she always will have when she expect us to read her mind.
i look in front and yea, saw D***.
i mean, so what if he's the nearest to me?
lol, that was so expected of Syaf to make fun. Syafiqah, syafiqah..
oh, well.
we went through the dreadful, unprepared, unrehearsed, presentation.
not so bad though, judging that Syafiqah, Dhiyyah and Shira didn't see the script before, with Syaf and Shira not understanding how is the literary devices used. expected, both of them made the class laugh for different reasons. Syafiqah illustrate a poem in which she was a widow with 5 kids. Shira didn't know how to pronounce the word "satin".
so everytime she say it, it was with different pronounciation. the last one was "setan". :D
nothing much happened other than we having two new teachers, replacing Mr Kuek and Mrs Wong, temporarily.

today, had nothing much other than band. it was rather quite boring, though. we played our scales through and through, trying to correct our staccato notes and the basic tones. though boring, we have to still go on 'cause the main reason why we got a silver, was because our music was quite weak. oh, i finally managed to change to a trumpet! :D but, i don't know if it was permanent. after a long wait, we finally played a song, a march to be precise, to prepare for the coming National Day Celebration. but hey, how come i play 1st? i had to say, i can't really play it, cause my sound can't be controlled on the trumpet. a few times it went out of tune, different than my previous flugelhorn. some high notes, i couldn't reach it at first.
we joked around, Cindy made me smile a couple of times, Alvina irritated me with her craziness.
rmbr Alvina, it's "Voulez vous couchez avec moi? c'est soir?"
i shouldn't have teach you that sentence in the first place.
so irritating. =.=lll
i shall not teach you anymore French related stuff anymore.
oh yea, KHALID WAS LATE!
not something to be happy 'bout, but i'm rejoicing. haha. (:
don't know why.
he was punished by the way. ((:
after buying drinks, and forever correcting Alvina's speaking of French with a Tamil accent -.-, we went home. that's it.

let it be & learn to let go.

2008-06-05T16:41:00.000+08:00

yes, it's over.
like i knew it would.
i'll obviously try to get over him.

the tears have dried,
though the heart is empty.
you're just a guy,
so don't worry.

i dk what has happened.
or if i ever meant anything.
i don't blame you, i'm not heartbroken 'cause of you.
but i'm angry at myself for ever liking you.

i'll get over you,
sooner or later, best if today.
the stuffs you said,
the poems you wrote,
i'll forget ; they don't mean anything.

(what was meant to be a poem, i know it doesn't rhyme. ha.)
nothing has happened.
it's best that it's over.
just friends & will always be.
:D

is this true? :D

2008-06-04T11:48:00.000+08:00

i dk.
is this really happening?

STRESS.

2008-04-30T22:09:00.000+08:00

yes, it has come.
yet again.
to destroy my life.
THE Mid Year Examinations. (emphasise on "the")

GREAT JUST GREAT.

how wonderful. (it's apparent i'm going crazy, ain't it?)

i had went throught 2 excruciating hours of SCIENCE.
i think i did so well that i can get full marks! (being sarcastic.)

finished my malay paper as well.
was okay but was no doubt harder than i thought it'd be.

it is such a boring post!

oh well, just for the sake of updating.

THE DAY.

2008-04-14T20:28:00.000+08:00

i can't believe it.
we got silver.
yea, it's white gold but still..
it's a silver.
we've trained so hard for 8 months+, for that 8 minutes show,
but still, we get a silver.

when the results was announced, i was so shocked.
i thought Gold was no problem but the "with honours" was.
so obviously my heart literally drop on the field, like "thud".
& i couldn't pick it up 'cause i was in rehatkan diri position so i can't move my legs. i don't mean it literally.

but when i turned to face the school, i was crying uncontrallably.
i felt like i let down the school.
we always make so much "noise" (music), they bear with it.
we always block the way, they bear with it.
because of us, they had to waste their Saturday to come & support.
just like that, it ended; with the word SILVER.

it seems so tragic, that we move forward and start the song right after we stop.
when i played the first phrase of "Katak Lompat", my notes kind of crack, because tears rolled down my cheeks.

the seniors, those usually irritating ones, actually patted us on the shoulders, consoling us.

i made it a point to play louder and better.
surprisingly, i could reach my high notes but so what?

when the instruments down, i cried while chins up.
i cried uncontrollably.
like seriously.
i didn't look up so much.
it was embarrassing.

and that happened twice.

so, the whole way i was sobbing, pausing in between to adjust my lip position as i cannot concentrate. tears continued pouring down. the last note, i manage to reach, but when we keluar baris, i absolutely break down.

i cried real badly.

the seniors continuously consoled me, including teachers. my section mates consoled me but end up crying too. one of my Band Leaders, ask me to stop crying twice.
the malay dancers, hug me too.
when we marched back to board the bus, that's when i was ask by Wei Lun to stop crying, i started to control myself and shout the timing.

but my voice cracked.

then while waiting, a school, i won't mention, even played their songs so loudly.
like "hello, we're crying right here, so at least be a little humble?"
some instruments even face us.
some showed off their twirling of the instruments.

2010, i make sure that gold with honours, is ours AGAIN.
this time, no reduction.

i'll be a senior, and its my duty to show what BPGHS band can really do, which others don't know.

too emo.
but i can't help it.
band means a lot to me.

HEY, EVERYONEE!

2008-04-03T22:55:00.001+08:00

Hey! Oh My God. this is the first time i'm blogging. nothing much to do, really. seeing as how much my friend loves to blog, so TA-DAA!
here's my blog.

erm, so today, nothing interesting telah happen. oh yea, except the D&T! Bagos kept on making me, Shahirah and Dhiyyah laugh. then he was like singing Indonesia songs. i realised that he really likes to sing. but there was something that he said to shahirah that was too funny to forget. well, Shahirah and Dhiyyah as well as myself, were discussing about the dnt. Bagos was sitting beside her. then Shahirah was looking the other way cause we were also discussing with Silas.

here's the dialogues of what telah happen:

bagus: kamu kenapa?
[bagus lay his head on the table, facing Shahirah]
bagus: aku pengen lihat wajah kamu..
me & Dhiyyah: [look at each other] hhahahahahahahahahaha!!
[shahirah, muke dah paiseyh giler. paiseyh ke malu, kak?haha.]
oh, and he kept scaring Shahirah from the back laa. and the way he screams, i mean really scream, was WOW! silas actually thought that it was shahirah who screamed and kept scolding her to stop attracting attention.
LMAO.

then Bagos label me as 'Nyonya Diko' [-.-lll] and Shahirah as 'Nyonya Udin'. he's so funny to be with uh! for Dhiyyah, he didn't say anything.
ehm! [clears throat]

ader pape tu.

haha. and it's funny how he calls khairuddin 'udin'. it was fun!
;D
wait for my next post!
i got to go! tmrw have to wake up early to go to SCHOOL by 6.15am for BAND.
so tiring, yet fun.

i shan't say any further. ;DD

Life's Too Short To Be Anyone Else But Yourself.

hiatus.

back.

lost.

life.

i wish.

herstory;

you?

oh.my.god.

alone;

different.

Sports Carnival; class bonding.

missin' it.

DhiyRaMirFieShaLin ;

:D

(:

with love; (edited)

LOL.

update on the oh-so-boring life. :D

unreasonable.

could it be i never thought it would turn out this way?

it all seemed so blur, when it's really clear.

everything felt like a mistake.

CNY celebrations.

i never wanted lose you;

IT'S YOUR B'DAY. :D

i wish everything would be different.

i never saw this.

HAPPY B'DAY!

forgotten.

& i wished you'd be here.

all i did, was think about..

when everything felt like a lie.

i had hope that you..

maybe, just maybe.

the start of something new.

i thought of you just too much.

what now?

i really miss you.

i miss you.

HAPPY B'DAY!

another love story.

Cara Cari Pacar.

tired, tired, tired.

let go.

Selamat Hari Raye Haji!

hurt.

rain. (:

JERA.

over?

i want that love story.

PADANG trip.

never wanting to lose you.

OUCH.

a dream. it came true.

jalan raye.

FUN.

Hasta La Vista.

:D

the way it is.

week update.

thanks.

just stop it.

i don't want to think about this anymore.

HARI RAYE.

it's my day.

they're MY friends.

everyday;

CIP cum NADA + Ridz outing day. :D

*gasps* impromptu speech.

CIP day.

it's never too late to apologise. ((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! ;DD

NDP celebrations.

THURSDAY;

EGG RELAY RACE.

NDP Rehearsal.

Speech day, y'all!

*chattering of teeth*

the song for me?

gasps impromptu speech.

chattering of teeth