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&JULIET
Mira.
plain ol' jane.
a year older every september 30th.
for some reason, i love saying "Seriously".
the label in my heart is "2pm".
in love with music.
better off being taller. :D
&MUSIC
&SAY
laugh like you never laugh before.
&THANK you
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Thursday, December 10, 2009
1:57 PM
on hiatus. officially band-busy. :X[ im tired of waitin' ]
Monday, November 2, 2009
6:27 PM
 well, the year alrdy flew by. i decided to update my blog & just forget about the old posts. haha. life's been greatly sucky, but true friends are always there. i have a new obsession. im in love. with 2pm.  im in love with NICHKHUN! yes, the middle one. XD uh huh. this is him. he's not Korean at all. just half Thai & half Chinese, so he has to learn Korean to debut with 2pm. & he's fluent in english. :D plus, he dance well too! <3> he dances Nobody, Tango Version in this video, with Sohee of Wondergirls, which yeah, is the youngest & does what i think is the cutest part of the song. they're so cute at the end! not being biased but, i really think his grip as a partner is great! better than Taecyeon's! haha, Linda. XD watch at 0:09 how he slides his hand. LOL. he was the only guy from 2pm who did that. hais. too cute. the end. XD [ im tired of waitin' ]
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
9:05 PM
 yo! my b'day tmrw! :D somehow, i don't really look forward to it. EOYs kind of spoilt it. i rather know there's not going to be anything special, rather than know it's actually my b'day. boleh gituk eh. but still im turnin' 15 soon! :D (editing soon.) [ im tired of waitin' ]
Friday, September 4, 2009
6:57 PM
 I'm currently lost in this complicated world. I can kill people for more time. 'll be back soon. :D [ im tired of waitin' ]
Friday, June 26, 2009
9:27 PM
so life's been great. bangsawan is definitely, definitely fun. completed the dance alrdy. :D eh, my head keep on hitting the floor again & again whenever i die 'cause dengar-dengar, orang tengah nanges abeh hentakkan kepale orang ah kan? XD Abg Fadhlur had a hard time "killing" the girls at the last scene, cause we all avoided him. XD macam bodoh seyh. & in the end, nobody was dead. he said he tapped us, but still, we're like "he didn't." LOL. & he was damn dramatic when he showed the stage fall to Farhanny. Azlinda, "eh eh, sexy." like whattheheck? haha. & the 4 hulubalang, Khai, Ridz, Khalid & Daniyal nyer pose for curtain call kelakar seyh! but somehow, it all look different. haha. today, me, Syaf, Dhiyyah, Shira, Syazana & Shalinah went crazy. when Abg Syadili, Abg Fadhlur & Abg Bob left the room & the room was kind of dark, Syazana was like "Pump up the party". LOL. & i started playing "Jai Ho" from my hp, & everything went crazy ah. HAHA. after that, decided to record a few other songs all the way to Lot 1. Abg Bob's car honked us, as we waved them goodbye. we went to eat at Long John Silver & talked about a lot of things. haha, Allisa, makeup guy tu aku nyer ah! HAHA. Syazana, kau amek Bob je kan? & we have this crazy idea to watch a movie & after deciding, we went West Mall to watch Drag Me to Hell. seram giler nak mampos. i sanked to my seat, closed my eyes with the popcorn, shivered with the popcorn in my hands, SCREAMED, pulled Syazana's skirt, covered my face with my bag & splashed the water i was drinking to my face cause i was too shocked. haha, kelakar seyh. after that, Allisa had to go, & we went McCafe to slack. Shahirah told us, uhmm, stories, & we just stare at her. XD then we left, to go home. it was damn fun. :D[ im tired of waitin' ]
Friday, June 12, 2009
11:52 AM
 it's my fault, but why i'm missing you? ugh, this shouldn't happen. i'm just really sorry i made you wait. cause i really didn't know. seriously, who would? there was nothing special about me. there's so much things, i still haven't told you, & i guess, i'm not going to, cause i doubt it matters anymore. there was never a guy who liked me, without liking any of my friends first. i was always a 2nd, or even 3rd, & that just really made me feel insignificant. just for that, you were & you are different, at least to me. you made me feel imprtnt. when i get bored or stressed in sch, you'd msg me like as if you knew, & at times when i wanted to msg you, i'd check my phone to see that you alrdy did. we may not be talking the whole day, but almost to midnight, you'd say "goodnight". (: i'd be crying over stress, but you'd be there for me & you don't even know it. i just, really miss you. now & then, when i look through our msgs, i'd laughed despite maybe actually crying over stuff. when things are just down for me, you ain't there anymore.. i just wish, i'd accepted to go out with you. i just wish, i didn't let my past haunt me. i just wish, i wasn't scared to tell you the things that i wanted to. i just wish, i wasn't scared to tell you how much you actually meant to me when i never made it seem that way to you. i just wish, i didn't run away from the truth, that i miss you. i just wish, i could tell you that i have always miss you, whenever you're not there. i just wish, i could tell you, that i miss you now. i just wish, i never made you wait. i just didn't know. i just wish, you'd be there for me again. i just wish.. but, who am i trying to kid, right? you just deserve better. happy to know you've moved on. knowing that you'd gotten over me just as fast as your exs, made me realise, that i'm just insignificant, & that hurts much more. but, i guess, that's just life, for me. i just wish. justanothergirl. mira. [ im tired of waitin' ]
Saturday, May 30, 2009
11:26 AM
 & I promise you, I wouldn't be crying over things like that anymore. You were/are right. It's history. [ im tired of waitin' ] i'll update about camp soon, but it was really fun. :D[ im tired of waitin' ]
Friday, May 29, 2009
6:20 PM
going to update soon. certain things made my day go bad. but some friends will make it better. (: promise updates. lol. like anyone read this blog.[ im tired of waitin' ]
Saturday, April 25, 2009
10:33 PM
 I don't know what to feel about you. [ im tired of waitin' ]
You came so sudden into my life. When i was almost at my lowest. Maybe there was nothing funny, but you made me laugh whenever you talk to me. Was it by magic, or somehow I left my past behind? You made me miss you, whenever you don't talk, & when you start, that's exactly what you ask. There were too many times that I was crying, & you made me laugh, even when you didn't know it, & I didn't tell you. Up till now. That's what I like about you. A lot. & somehow, you never stopped. As if you knew. There were times where I really wanted to talk to you, but I didn't, cause I didn't want to be too close to you. The past maybe gone, but scars are still not mend. 'Cause, I said, too many times, I always get hurt in the end. Maybe I don't want to lose you, but I'm trying everything I can to not need you. It becomes so hard. Too hard. I'd just sit in my bedroom, staring at my handphone, waiting. For you. But then again, I keep thinking, "No, it shouldn't have been this way." Though it may not feel nice, I'd say, "Thanks that you didn't talk to me. Cause that'll help to create that distance from you." 'Cause yet again, for me, you seemed too good to be true. mira.
Friday, April 24, 2009
5:02 PM
cheer comp is coming. awww, it's so sad that the four of us can't be together to do the cheers again. but well, yeahh, things have to change. maybe, i do miss them, but it's kind of hurting that even after what you've done, you're just being called (insert name)'s friend, (insert name)'s gang, everyone else that helped, (insert smth) girls. yeahh, well. i can't really say i'm surprised either. things has always been like that ever since i was born, maybe. never visible to anyone. it's always, everyone else. well, i'm not mad about it anyway. can't help that sometimes, you're really not appreciated. just that, i don't want to do anything anymore, regarding the comp. heck, i'm saying as if i'm SO good. haha. but yeahh, just saying, i don't really want to be involved. not that i did anything significant anyway. (: THEY did better.[ im tired of waitin' ]
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
7:26 PM
No one could imagine how stupid i felt. Why did i even want to give it a try? I made a fool of myself. I really did. It wasn't as bad when those laughters came. It made me realised again, that it never was good. Friends being friends, they'll never say the bad things. Always try to make you feel better. But things, will never change. I can't deny the obvious truth.[ im tired of waitin' ]
Sunday, April 19, 2009
10:24 AM
 Wow, seeing this picture really made my day. my week. my month. XD These are some of the people that I spent my time with the entire week. ( Week only, but my time is precious so you guys should be honoured. XD Macam paham. LOL. ) Please try to ignore all the cannot-maintain-though-we-tried-hard-to-but-how-to-cause-we're-jumping face. Really, I had fun. Thanks. :D [ im tired of waitin' ]
Saturday, April 18, 2009
10:49 AM
everyone found everyone else.. & it's all alone over again.[ im tired of waitin' ]
Friday, March 13, 2009
9:23 PM
today was quite okay actually. though it didn't go as well as i expected, it wasn't too disappointing either. while waiting for our turn, the girls were actually playing the concentration game in one big circle then truth & dare. girls bonding. very good de. i was in Team 1, but i didn't play the first match. i was running like mad to find Hui Yan. XD they WON against 3L1. (: Hui Yan got the penalty shot, & when we won, i thought she was just wiping her eyes then we realised that she was crying. awwww. we had a group hug. :D played the second match, but we lost against 3C though. i ALMOST cried. almost uh. but didn't. so we left, & cheered on the boys. even though they were losing, we still cheered like our lungs was going to burst. who cares if we won or not? it was obvious that our class was REALLY bonding. for real. maybe even more compared to the other class. (: not being a sore loser or anything, but the game was not that fair sey. it's not about our sportmanship or anything uh, but before you talk about sportmanship, you must talk about fairness first. we still continued on cheering for Team 2, in which they won first match. yay them! we shouted like HELL. me & Azlinda so semangat, we stand up & cheered "gimme gimme more, gimme more, gimme gimme more." & the guys looked at us like we're from outer space like that. XD but still, our class was bonding. & even though they lost, we had one last group hug, as we watched the other games. i'm probably going to lose my voice due to too much cheering. haha. bought an ice pop for Shira, who didn't want it, BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO DRINK/EAT IT. haha. bought hotdogs for me & Azlinda and we were so hungry. i soon left, & rushed for band. after i changed, i saw her crying. & when i asked why, she then hugged me and continued crying. tried to console her, but i probably had to tiptoe a bit, cause she was bending down to hug me, cause i was so short. XD knew the reasons, & i SO don't find it fair. she totally backed out of old sch hip hop for it. so unreasonable. but tried to console her uh. (: it's okay bah, prove them that they couldn't be more wrong. :D went for band, & as we marched all the way to 4th floor, my voice grew tired, & they all laughed when they hear my voice. haha. when we keluar baris, we probably shocked the few sec 1s. LOL. got to know it was a soli passage, & not only that, we had to stand up. during the real performance, when i was standing up, i was trembling a LOT. zzzz. but i tried to shake it off, by focusing on the rhythm. macam paham jeeeee. XD but really, i did. went down, saw Divya. she came back! haha. so good uh. not tired meh? haha. continued on with the prize giving ceremony. then change, go my house with Syaf then slack. got ready for Malay Dance but Syaf have to go for an interview first. so i was left with Shira & Allisa. IT WAS DAMN FUNNEH. cikgu selalu maen-maenkan Shira. kelakar tak boleh angkat sey, kener seret. the way Shira dance, FUH! so funny. not how she dance uh, but when she make salah, CONFIRM cikgu nampak. haha. & i am still not over Allisa's sexy voice. even Khalid said so! HAHA. memang tak boleh angkat when she laughed. still rmbred ystrdy at the drink stall with her, "Auntie, two green - " her voice disappeared & i just couldn't stop laughing, even the auntie. haha. did a few things, & i just got really tired. haha. after that, Shira & Syaf taught me the hip hop formation a bit, & we were off! ~ our class really bonded today. somehow, the class spirit seemed so real, & i hope it is. it's nice how we were so sad when we couldn't win it for our class, but still, we never stopped cheering. i kind of like this class. you'll just never feel left out here. nevertheless, still love you 201'08. :D ps. i'll update the days before, soon.[ im tired of waitin' ]
Saturday, February 28, 2009
9:03 PM
i've been watching CAP videos. haha. random. suddenly, i missed it. rmbred that we spend 5 days together. me, Shalinah, Shira & Dhiyyah were always the first to wake up each morning. then sembahyang suboh dulu, baru pergi breakfast. going for all the lectures & all the delicious food breaks. & all the 11 malays that went there, would go to these tables, isolated from the rest, to play truth & dare. XD haha. then the funny malay classes. & Cikgu Isa Kamari go and tell us ghost stories on MALAM JUMA'AT. i SERIOUSLY didn't sleep that night. & i cried cause i was so scared. somehow. XD then every night, after dinner, we went for our courses, indian dance/javanese dance/art/drama & percussion. so nice. like a complete day. lectures during the day, & be "creative" at night. so nice sey. it's like having school, during the night. then we end class at 10.30pm. haha, so fun. & the last day was like a rehearsal day and we were so busy trying to get everything right. it don't even feel like we're going for school camp at all, cause it was more of fun that lectures. we were so creative, that even during lectures, from on top, i can see that everyone was pretty much writing their own poems rather than listening to the lecture. because one fun lecturer always said that she does that. XD i wrote A LOT of poems. haha. hmm, tired now. will update this post soon. :D[ im tired of waitin' ]
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
8:29 PM
 know that we're all for one, one for all. :D [ im tired of waitin' ]
Friday, February 20, 2009
8:50 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ASYRAF & HAFIZ. i didn't manage to see Asyraf, so i sms-ed him instead, but Hafiz, senang ah, cause his class is next to mine la kan. reminded Syaf so we tried to wish him together, & i did, but i think he didn't hear me. XD haha, nevermind. ader niat jugak pe. lol.  "sheesh, i don't want to take a picture." XD this picture was taken on the 4th night, at Creative Arts Programme Seminar, after farewell dinner, which we can wear home clothes. i wear dress sey. XD haha, anyway, i tried to take a picture of everybody, & Hafiz tried hard to run away. seriously, he used his pass to open the door gates to an unknown block, so this picture is as far as i got. nampak malu je, but he's NOT. XD i tried to take a picture of Fiz, but tak kesampaian. so i take video instead, & he turned! at least for a second. XDon the next day, the last day, he actually asked me to delete but i didn't want to. i wanted to blackmail, y'know. XD & he was so perasan. -.- he said, when i didn't want to delete, "kalau interested tu, bilang je la." haiyohh. haha. omg, i miss CAP. ): will post more soon. ciao!
it breaks. [ im tired of waitin' ]very lazy to post now. :D[ im tired of waitin' ]
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
7:37 PM
yo earthlings! XD & i finally edited my post on Valentine's Week. FINALLY. (i know i'm slow.) this week was still quite better. & we patched up alrdy. XD don't assume, 'kay? haha. lol. Monday; English was first period, & some special people had to give their speech. Az had no eye contact sey cause she didn't memorise. haha. when Ming Yeow gave his, Benjamen was right at the back, & he wrote on a paper, "Louder". haha. Carlyna gave a good speech. (: Chemistry was next, & we have to go into groups. i was same group as Syaf, Az, Han Yan (Zong Heung's) & Kilice (Zong Heung's 2. XD) it was so funy luh. we have to write the theory of an experiment, & i confused them. Az said "stop it about crystallise. don't confuse us." haha. Han Yan randomly sang "let us celebrate this moment.." then the whole group sang "a brand new day awaits.." LOL, so random sey. Han Yan, or Zong Heung's, is damn random. suddenly, she said that she didn't add us on MSN. Han Yan; eh, i didn't add you guys on MSN. Az; i add both of you so shut up & drive. then the group laugh. we had nothing better to do sey. Han Yan; eh, you like Zong Heung lor! Azlinda; be true to yourself. Kilice; huh? he likes me? XD then don't know how, suddenly i like Zong Heung. -.- so i purposely said, in a louder tone, "Han Yan, you like Zong Heung, is it?" people started laughing. haha. i act like i did nothing. haha. blahblahblah. duing recess, i helped Syaf & Lin with their sastera then the bell rang. but still managed to help finish it. while talking during sastera, it went blackout sey. guys; eh, sejuk nyer. -blackout- Cikgu Manaf; kan? haha. then we had to learn the right way of singing the same song we learnt the other time, this time, standing. & i'm in love with.. someone's.. VOICE. yes, the VOICE only, NOT the PERSON. let's make it clear again, the VOICE only. haha. but i shan't say who. haha. we had, old sch hip hop again, & we have learn new stuff. it was funny, the hip movements & all. haha. still quite fun though. :D Tuesday; during English, suddenly, one by one started standing, so i was being so stupid & asked Lin, Kilice & Han Yan, "why people stand one?" in the end, i get to know, it was to greet the teacher. XD so paiseyh. & Kilice was laughing saying i was cute. -.- haha. recess, we came back class, & Lin + Syaf keep on irritating me with the i like (insert name here). me & Lin then went outside, & sit on the lockers. (yes, there's no other place. XD) then H_ _ _q passed, so i started laughing cause Linda said she was interested in him. haha. Veingad passed, then Linda said i like someone from their class. -.- i said, "No..!" Veingad said "you like Asyur la." haha, to Linda. kener kau. muahaha! (i sound evil. XD) then he said, "& she i know like, (insert name here). wt.. that was so long ago. & Syafiqah was like "ohhhhhhh... aiyoh mira.." then bell rang, & he went out of his class! omg, did he hear? i hope not. haha. the rest of the day was quite boring, then had band. Wen Xi said i was the section representative but, i think, Cindy would be the one if she didn't need to take the band. haha. we ate at KFC, after band, as always, again. haha. oh yeah, we had PE, & we have to run outside again. before the run, i was just sort of "emoing" while waiting for the traffic light, then Syaf said, "oh, terfikirkan (insert name here) eh?" -.- i gave her the why-would-i-miss-him-when-we're-not-even-together look. haha. ran with Atiqah again, & yes! i didn't stop. haha. but i did slow down for Atiqah. (: Zhi Yee was good, then at the end of the run, i let Atiqah run in front of me, & she was ahead two seconds. haha. went back to sch, & we played basketball. it was the worst time i ever had. really. haha. 1. Azlinda accidentally (confirm purposely. XD) hit my head. 2. the ball hit my face that i fall to the ground. haha. 3. while catching the ball, i almost fall. 4. when i finally catched the ball, i fall. XD 5.. the ball hit my mouth. XD 6. on the rebound, it hit my head. 7. Azlinda accidentally (sure. haha.) throw at me too hard which hit my CHEST, yes, ONLY the chest too hard, that i fall to the floor again. XD 8. while trying to catch the ball, someone accidentally hit me & i scratched my knee. LOL. i seriously too short until can't see, is it? haha. even Syaf said, "why always Amirah that kena?" i think everyone had their chance & asked if i was okay. especially Syaf, everytime. haha. Azlinda, hit, then laugh. gahh. that woman. haha. why? why i let it hurt me?[ im tired of waitin' ]
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